12:40 made up poems

Heartbeats

Please don't walk away
don't fade away
don't rush into hush
Let me reveal, let me show
Then amidst all that,
please love me still.


If you're just a glitch
walk away.
I'm done with all the passer by
Let me have a real one.
The one that will stay
even if my hair turns to gray.


I don't need good mornings or good nights
if I can't lean on you during bad days
I don't need you to say eat on time
if you can't be there on waves
I don't need small talks
I need real ones.


I wish that today would finally be my day
a brand new start
a brand new life
I hope that finally I can call someone mine
a life with you
a moment to last
I pray that your love will never fade
a rain won't catch you cold
a sway won't make you go away.
So stay, please let it be you.

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Every Sunday is a Memory

Collection of made up poems by yours truly.

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4:40 Made up poems

(Made by yours truly :) 

I swam through the rivers of your soul

-it was so deep and void.

Made up of love’s sacrifices,

that’s never been returned.

How I love to dig down unto it more;

Even though my heart would explode.

You are like a shadow;

So vain and dishonest

I wanted you for all days,

Yet you came without rays.

I needed you when I don’t

Yet you’ve shown like before.

Unmade sheets are very special to me,

it is so honest that I can smell you from within.

It is so honest that I can play what memories lack.

It is so honest that I know I can’t have you back.

You leave me with a scar that’s naked.

Forever thorn, forever unshaken.

This is what you do when you left people’s heart out of the blue.

You show them how red can be hue.

How beautiful it is to meet a stranger,

not knowing you, not knowing him.

But stories are made for one another.

Goodbye to you my dearest man,

For once, I’ve been blown by your laugh,

For once, I’ve been shaken by your touch.

But now, for once, I’ve waken my soul to left you behind.

Simple things make the most of unexpected days.

It will give you peace you keep searching on unwanted scenes.

He’s like the last carousel ride in a fair;

Everyone’s done for the last trail,

Yet I am here round and around till I go.

My letters are not yet frozen,

It still has the mouth to speak out the words I long for you.

It is never been redesigned. It was always for you.

I watched through my window as the pink skies grow wider and wider.

It can fill up the whole town in its arm;

yet I’m still here yearning for love.

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Black bird fly (Beat depression!)

Hello, darkness my old friend...

Maybe: It started out when you felt nothing for weeks. It’s like gazing into the stars but not feeling overwhelmed or excited. You looked into the stars but not really seeing them, staring into nothingness. Then you felt okay, for days, for weeks and even for months. The idea of getting numb suddenly came by like an uninvited visitor. Then it crawls into your deepest nerve, paralyzing you. You don’t want to move, to eat nor go to work. You just wanted to lie in bed for days, looking at your sad dog beside you. You felt empty again.

To tell you now, we don’t know how it really started or the reason why it started. Maybe because of some circumstances that happened to you that you really didn’t like and never been proud of, or maybe because of some people drowning you, that unknowingly you’re letting them in into your lungs, then it’s getting harder to breathe or maybe just because of the life you have that never excites you anymore, like finding your whole meaning or purpose in the world but never having any answers, or maybe because you don’t feel loved or liked by someone or just even hating yourself, or maybe because you lose your friends to keep in touch or maybe because your family never ask how your day went or asking if you are okay, or maybe just the feeling that people aren’t so nice at all after you’ve shown them the real you, or maybe just because you hate yourself for being stupid, for not being cool enough to join a group, for your mistakes, for  failures or for the love that’s never been appreciated. Maybe you’re just suddenly tired, giving up.

I don’t know. We don’t know.

What you just know, is that it enters into your system like a dark smoke, creeping
into your nerves, injecting Valium. Then you allowed them.

Now, the thing is, you’ve never shown this to anyone. You acted okay, you acted fine, you acted happy and it turns out, you’re an actress in your own movie. But no one’s watching.

You’re so sad because you started losing yourself

How to get back?

Really, you just don’t know.

Then like a thunder it, shocked you.

You have to choose the emotions you wanted to enter into your mind. Mind is a very powerful organ in your body. It controls you for some reasons.

The mind is the devil’s playground. But your heart is what God has made you to wake up.

Wake up from the couch that you’ve been sleeping in. If you stay too long in your bed, they’ll take away your things. Remember that.

So you have to get up.

Maybe we forget to pray; maybe we’re the ones who are detaching ourselves from friends, family, home, or the world. It's not your fault. 

And it's okay to acknowledge your feelings, because it is you.
But I also do believe, that beyond all of these, you are one of a hell strong person. You are so strong to hold onto these things, for carrying them and I love you for that. 

Don’t let that define you. Don’t let it in.
But right now, I want to you to give yourself a tap on your shoulder. You did good and honestly you can be more. Now, try to smile a bit. Inhale and exhale.
Try to focus on the good things. Try to let the light in. Don't be too hard on yourself. Accept yourself fully. Life's too short, get up and raise your arms. Let's try again.

We’re not perfect and that's okay. Get the grip loose. It’s time to take a deep breath and get high on fumes.

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Where flowers bloom, where love grows. -My thoughts about love are growing.

My thoughts about love are finally growing, it’s finally maturing, and it’s finally taking its own path, making its own backyard.

Love is such a wonderful four letter word. But I have also come to realize that, with that four letter word another four letter words could sprout—Fear, Lust, Risk, Dare, Hurt, Care, Wait, Last, Like, Give, Hope and Many More. It’s like a mother giving birth to its children.

I love the idea of getting the love from watching movies, series or dramas. It feeds my mind to hope for something like that to happen to me. To make me believe that I can have someone like John Cusack in Serendipity, believing in fate, believing in destiny or just like every character of Ryan Gosling in a romantic film making you, making us want to love.

But somehow, I’ve come to realize, that these whole things of loving someone or just the word love itself is a tough one to catch. It’s a closed ring, between you and that ‘love’. You’ll be fighting one on one, blood by blood, and the winner takes it all.

I fell in love and it was a tough one.  I have learned so many things from it and from that kind of love I have experienced; I started to know what I wanted.

I want someone who can admire the less obvious in me, the one who can see deep inside of my smiling face, of my laughing dance or my crying eyes. I wanted a love that can see my reflections, someone that can’t judge me for my mistakes or failures or someone that can’t define me because of my wrong doings.

I want someone who can look me in the eyes so deep that it’ll bother for a moment but I can gaze back through him and everything around us will just be a blur.  I want someone whom I can dance in the kitchen while cooking or baking, someone who can dance with me in the rain or tag along with our favorite indie music.

Someone who can see me not wearing any fancy clothes or make-ups, but still see something in me that’s worth like the Heart of the Ocean. Someone who can be crazy with me at all times, the same wavelength I had. It’s like we are playing mind games but no one will win because both of us will get it.

I pray for someone who can make a song for me, not really making an original song but making a song his own song for me, owning it, that whenever I heard that song playing wherever I am, he’s the only one I can always think about.

Someone who can travel with me and be adventurous. Someone that can dream with me while gazing through the stars. Someone who can sip coffee with me in the morning and someone who can drink wine with me in the evening. Someone who is ready to learn new things with me. I water you, you water me, so we grow together. Someone I can lean on, happy or sad moments. Someone I can trust my life with it. Someone who never let go, someone who never leaves. Someone who will hold you until you fell asleep from crying. Someone who can laugh at your silly jokes. Someone who is honest.

Someone that is really meant for you.

Someone I can be with to pray every time.

Most of all, a person that I can also be that ‘someone’ to him.

Or maybe, just someone who can love me.

There's no harm in praying for someone like that to come into your life anyway. Who doesn't? Love makes you feel like a romantic writer anyway. 

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15 Thoughts about love that I always wanted my heart to remember

1. Find someone who admires you for something less obvious

2. You will never heal by going back to what broke you

3. Give love you never got

4. A person who values you would never put themselves in a position to lose you

5. You must love in such a way that the person you love feels free

6. You will never have to chase what wants to stay with you

7. If you have been brutally broken, but still have the courage to be gentle to others, then you deserve a love deeper than the ocean itself.

8. The person who did this to you is broken, not you

9. It's not love's job to punish you

10. The absence of a lover is not the absence of love, I am my own belly butterflies, my own sunshine, my own warmth

11. Go for someone who is not only proud to have you, but will also take every risk just to be with you

12. Love is not your savior. Love is the luxury after you save yourself

13. When you lose someone, it is never the exactly the same person who comes back

14. If you don't belong, don't be long

15. When someone leaves, it's because someone else is about to arise

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To all the boys we loved before

     

     **To the guy I’ve known for so long, who suddenly become my best friend, my super bud, my food buddy and my confidante, partners in crime for life right? Thanks for being with me all the time you never know how much I appreciate this kind of friendship that we have. It isn’t for just a good time, I know. It feels so easy to talk about anything with you and it feels so safe to share about my problems with you without being judged. I can get the most exact comments from you, no filter, no sugar coating of words, you just say the exact truth. We laugh at the most bizarre things, we act like brothers, we share the common grounds and I thank heavens for sending me a friend like you. No drama.

**To the guy I’ve already forgiven, now. Now is the time I guess, to fill my heart with forgiveness. I will never forget of course, but surely I can forgive you. I don’t want to dwell in that gloomy past. I love myself so I am forgiving you.

**To the guy I’ve met in a deserted lane. We’ve crossed the same path, made a quick glance to one another, held hands but eventually didn’t stay for too long, it’s okay. We didn’t push ourselves too hard. Maybe it’s right, it feels okay but not right for too long. It just happened that we’re walking on that lane for the same day, but have different journeys to take.

**To the guy I’ve hoped. I still didn’t get the chance to meet you or maybe I already did? I don’t know. Maybe we already crossed the path, tend to look on each other but never said anything. I’m wondering what kind of lesson I might get from you. But surely, we’ll know each other.

**To the guy I gave nothing but heartaches. I am deeply sorry. You met me at my worst, where all things just go wrong in my mind, where I can’t think straight, where my only concern is my well being. You love me but all I did was to break your heart. You’ll always be a part of my life, strange as it seems, I learned a lot from you.  Selfish to realize but yes, someone can love me and can offer his whole Universe.  Thank you and sorry, I know you’re doing well now and I wish you well.

**To the guy who crossed my path for a thousand times, I guess you’re free now. I can’t say more, cause all my letters in the past were always about you. So I’ll just stop here for good.

** To the guy, I’m giving my heart, please take care of it. Please have patience with it, please have it for a lifetime. Let’s be psychos, weirdos and crazy together. I can’t wait for the moment when the both of us are just two individuals, watching the sunset, watching the rain from outside, sipping coffee, reading books, going anywhere or nowhere, watching movies (Either X-men or Before sunset will do), telling our stories, fighting to worthless or significant topics we will encounter, or maybe just being us, just two individuals with the same insights and feelings. Let it be like an indie song. 

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To my almost "always"

How can you love a person so much, so genuine, so sweet and then unlove them suddenly? How can you tell your promises to one another and broke them again? How can you say you won’t leave, when all you ever did was to walk away?

Dear  Stranger… again,

                It’s done.  Just like that, it’s over… again.

                You’re a stranger again, just like that.

I guess it will never work out the way we always wanted and right here, right now before the clock ticks to nothingness and before I lose the whole meaning of writing, I’ll never find and will never ask answers from you, simply because I just thought I don’t need them. There were questions that don’t need any answers; it’s like a rhetorical question needing a rhetorical answer.

I just want to go on with my life and by that means, without you.

Thank you, for leaving a trace that surely I will never forget. Still, I know, there will be times that I’ll miss you, I’ll remember you even if I just walk on that stupid lane we used to walked, surely I’ll remember how you say your dreams or you, confessing your love to me, but surely it will also remind me, that these things were all in the past, and that’ll wake me, because hey, I’m in the present.

Thank you, for giving me emotions. Happiness, madness, loneliness and for a time I feel a blood rush into my veins.

It’s funny how things work out, we used to be friends, best friends, turned out to be lovers, then strangers, friends and then lovers again, but you choose to be a stranger again… for a long time, and you suddenly came back again, then we became lovers again, then back to where we used to be… being strangers to each other, am I nuts? Maybe I am.

To tell you honestly, it came to my mind that I shouldn’t regret any single moments I had with you. I guess, it made a part of rebuilding of who I am, for knowing myself deeply, that without these certain moments, without these lessons, I wouldn’t be the person I am right now or the person that I will become.  You are like the every person mentioned in a heartbroken or sad song. Thank you for all those countless memories, for the things you shared, for the laugh, tears you brought into my life, but most of all, for the heartaches that you gave me.

I am also sorry, for not being the person you used to know. I changed a lot. Maybe a part of the reason why is because of what happened to us. But I don’t blame you anymore, this is me right now and you can’t find the old one and to tell you, I can’t find you too.

Up until now, I don’t know what love can bring to me, to us. I just got a realization, that when you break up with people, you also break a part of yourself, you detach from all these strings that once made you together. It is hard. But you have to accept and move on.

I forgive you anyway, maybe it’s not your fault after all, for not loving me anymore, for losing the string, for giving up on our always, maybe that’s just how it goes, cause maybe you’re not the one for me, maybe you’re just a hundred lesson I should learn back then. And right now, the only thing that I should take from all of these is to accept the fact that people come and go and steal your parts and it’s up to you on how to regain yourself again from that heartache.

No one’s to blame, cause maybe it just how our story goes right now… but it is not the end. We should continue to walk on and be strong every day, to learn to love yourself and rebuild your trust. There will be an always for us, maybe not on the person we used to love, maybe from someone else, who knows? Love’s a puzzle, cause maybe the person we love doesn’t deserve us.

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The Perfect "Snogging" Playlist

Imagine this. A not so new but usable car, a group of crazy friends, a perfect night, a road trip, an event of your favorite band, a perfect place, something like a record studio, maybe? and of course your man/lady sitting next beside you, what could possibly go wrong? 

Ah... maybe the perfect song for you guys to start the sparkle? Have it my way. 

1    1.  John Gold-“Vampire’s Kiss”

    “We are love, we are taken for granted
      I'm only here for this moment”

2. The real Tuesday weld-Last words

  “You said you loved me and I kind of believe that

    But these days, who knows what it means”

3. Alabama shakes-Always Alright

    “So you took me to party you got me alone 
     Said you wanna feel good and you feel like you're gonna explode"

4. She & Him-Thieves

    “And I know, and you know too that a love like ours is terrible news

      But that wont stop me crying no, that wont stop me crying over you”

5. Wild nothing-Only heather

          “Dressed in the moonlight and paler than bone she has got something that I've never known

            I couldn't explain it, I won't even try she is so lovely, she makes me feel high.”

      6. The xx-VCR

    “Watch things on vcrs with me and talk about big love I think we're superstars”

7. Jake bugg-Simple as this

    “I've been falling, crashing, breaking all the while you were stood here waiting
      For me girl”

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Fool's gold

You've been always my favorite person, my favorite song, my favorite past. But today, I will start my life without you.

I’ll never forget you. I’ll never forget how we used to be best friends, and then became lovers with a tough love and now, it all comes back again to where we used to be, and we’re good as strangers.

You’re my first love, the first man I always wanted to be with, the one I always wanted to end up with in every step of the way. The reason why I believe that love can be so genuine. The reason why I am happy and for some moment I feel so alive.

But we always go the wrong way.

You’re a time destroyer.

Maybe what we have is different. We love each other, but will never be together, we end up hating and hurting each other … and that’s enough.

I’m not letting you go. I’m letting my feelings go.

I have to accept the fact, that there are people that once were lovers, that once had the most beautiful stories, that once had the most amazing dreams for each other, but will never be together. 

Maybe we always came back for each other, but we always lose the chances that time gave us. It’s such a beautiful grunge love story.  I’ll be keeping these memories, that once I met someone like you. That once, someone made me feel like a flower. But I never wanted to be a flower. 

I want to be happy. I need someone that will never leave me. 

We’ll be alright.

Goodbye to my almost ‘always’. 

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10 things I hate but makes me love you.

10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU

I hate it when I ask you “what are you thinking?” Then you’ll say nothing, even though there is. It makes me wanted to wonder in your world.

I hate it when you lie or whenever I felt that you’re lying. I honestly wanted to know all the details, big or small.

I hate it when you take 5 cigs a day (or more) or get drunk on evenings. I am concern about your health, I wanted to be with you for the longest time, because we have so much things to do.

I hate it when you look at me & I’ll ask you “Why?” then you’ll say nothing. If you wanted to tell me I am beautiful or if you love me, or if there’s a dirt on my face, please tell me. I wanted to hear it from you.

I hate it when you accidentally steps on my foot or trip. I walk fast remember? So why?

I hate it when you fall asleep & forget to text me good night. I know you’re tired, but please before going to sleep, send me a good night message, when the night comes, I wanted my last text message would be coming from you.

I hate it when you sip your drink louder. It’s kinda cute, but others are looking. But it’s you, so it’s okay anyway.

I hate it when we fight, either it’s me who started or you, I just really don’t like the feeling. But whenever it will happen, please let us always try our best to work things out.

I hate it when you’re thinking you’ll disappoint me or you’ll fail. I wanted you to know that I am here in your worst & best moments in your life.

I hate knowing all the girls you like before.

10 THINGS I LOVE ABOUT YOU

I love it when you touch my cheeks, chin, ears & back. It’s like you’re playing with my sensation.

I love it when you hold my hand, while we’re walking in the middle of the night, just the two of us. You make me feel safe.

I love it how you protect me while crossing the streets, you’re so into it. I also do love while you patiently wait for me when I came from work. It touches my heart, knowing that you’ll be waiting for me. I will always appreciate your efforts.

I love it when you say my name or our endearment, it’s like my name has a new meaning.

I love looking at you while you eat, you make me realize that foods shouldn’t come into waste, every bit of it. I love the nights when we decided to drink outside, talk & have a meaningful conversation. You are the best food buddy I ever have.

I love it when you say you’ll support me, I love it, that even though it’s not your thing to photograph foods or places, you still join me in my hobby & make sure will get the right shot.

I love knowing that even though, I am the craziest, moodiest, weirdest person in the world, you always choose to stay & still interested in knowing my thoughts.

I love how you respect me, it really shows , for telling me I am beautiful, that you’re proud of me & that you’re lucky to have me as your partner. It made me feel the best.

I love it when we both plan & think about our future together, to the places we would go, to the times we can spend all the time & be fool & stupid in love.

1   I love it when you tell me you are happy when you’re with me, that even though I have my own flaws, you still love me & you will always choose to love me.  And there’s more to love about you.

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Why we keep on coming back?

Dear _____,

I have a song for you.

“True love they use to say won’t leave you astray, but hey babe we can start all over again, we’re going home”. There may be a hundred reasons why we failed in the first try, a hundred reasons why we broke up, a hundred reasons why we decided and called it quits. But if there’s one reason why we always wanted to come back, maybe that reason is too strong compared to the hundred reasons why we grow apart. That one reason maybe could bring us back together again. To start again, to add it in our memories, that time we might grow together again.

But people don’t always get lucky. Not all of us can get a second, third or fourth chances in lives. So when we have it, when we are able to grab those chances, we should keep it as an air in our lungs. Treasure it and don’t ever waste it.

Given us the familiarity, that certain voice or feelings, we should keep it alive. We should bury it in our hearts; no one can steal it, trust me it’s ours. 

This should be kept a worthwhile memory.

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A letter to myself

DEAR ___________

First and for most, I am proud of you no matter what. You’ve come a looong way. This isn’t the time to give up. I know you miss your old self, the old _______ who can smile and be positive about the world, the old you who is a friend to all kinds of people, a hardworking _____, the one who busy herself doing amazing stuffs, the one who is afraid to get a low score test, the one who is imaginably a dreamer for herself and for her family. The old ______ is happy, I know. She never minds the bad in this world, for she doesn’t know back then, all she can see is a bright future, a happy world to live in.

But now, you have learned so much in this world. World isn’t about black and white, no, there are gray, red and blue, it depends. In short, you have learned that the world is not just one sided, it has many faces. You have learned to realize this, because of some experiences that brought you here. Life cannot offer you everything. You have learned love in a deeper way, you started disliking people, and you started to distrust people, even yourself. You have come to realize that fear is eating you alive. You have come to know that you can’t please many people in this world that some people just simply don’t like you and for that, you tried to make another version of you. You tried to be somebody else and it finally came to you that you’re not happy and sooner the system will just eat you up. You started to learn that there are different people in this world, different kinds, angels and monsters, bad and good, superstars and goons. You started knowing your real friends. You kinda made an organization, there are friends just for travel leisure, for fun and games, friends at work, friends you just say hi for a second, and luckily, friends that stays forever.  I tell you what, life isn’t black and white, it is a rainbow. For that, you finally came up with an answer that life is a coloring book, you choose what color to be put on.

When you’re still a child you only see the beautiful basic colors that makes up the world, but when you grow up, you finally realize that there are gray, maroon, fuchsia and beige. You suddenly learn the color palette. In this world, you strive hard, you really did. If you don’t then why are you here anyway? Some people will let you down, judge you, belittle you but let me tell you this, they don’t own you. You own yourself, you have the control besides God, so another thing, ask him. There are moments in your life when you didn’t know what to do, when you are stuck suddenly in a middle of nowhere, you can’t walk a little because you just didn’t know what to do. So, ask God for directions. Just remember, that always do what you love, always reach for that dream, never stop, always give your hundred percent at everything, because in the end, it will pay you a reward. Life isn’t depressing at all, you are not the only one who thinks and feels like an idiot for a moment. When you feel you’re worthless, don’t stay in bed for too long, stand up. And if your parents started nagging you for doing nothing, maybe they are right, you have to do something, cause time’s running up, it won’t wait you, maybe you’re late but you can catch up and when the time comes that you already know what to do, you’re just exact in time. Maybe you’re in a line between “going there” to “finish”, we all are. These feelings of loneliness, sadness, it will fade away once we know who we really are and what we are here for. It is a journey, so embrace every of it. We will all end up being happy and whole at the end. Just remember, don’t stay too long in bed. There’s still a chance for everyone.

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10 WAYS FOR A HEALTHIER AND HAPPIER YOU; BETTER EACH DAY

It’s been quite awhile since I’ve been reading 365 ways of a healthier and happier you better each day by Jessica Cassity and before having this book I have a loooong way of figuring out which and why to buy a book for that day. Actually that day, I feel so down and uneasy with myself that I have decided to buy a book that will inspire me. (1) What career to choose on (2) Do I need to change directions? (3) Misdirection of what path to choose on (4) How to be happy and successful. These are the thoughts that keep on playing in my mind while I scan the books and find my perfect match.

I have come to like 6 books. (1) How to be successful in your chosen career (2) Things that scares you (3) Things that inspires you (4) Steps on moving forward (5) The answer to your questions (6) The book I have finally chosen.  I am really torn to number 1, 5 and 6. But I chose the latter. 365 days for a happier you, hmmm sounds good for spending 800 php for a book. It will be a great help for me every day since every time I can read just one page on it and then learn something from it to hopefully apply on that specific day. I haven’t finished the book yet, of course. But while I’m scanning, I have chosen ten things that I/You can do for a day and just ease your mind and somehow feel better than okay.

(1)   Television viewing doesn’t actually let you unwind – Instead, go for a walk or look at the nature outside if you really wanted to relax, cause watching TV, is not really for relaxation, it is for entertaining so having said it, your mind is still working. They’ve said that just by looking a tree outside, it will make you feel good somehow, because a tree represents hope.

(2)   Don’t skimp on sleep – Sleep deprivation will lead your brain to function below its full potential. If you have a presentation/exam tomorrow better prepared earlier and take a nap to refresh your brain because if you keep on studying even if you’re tired, 40% of the information will take in into your brain. (P.S Sometimes, this thing does not go well to many of us, but at least try some time and observe if it works on you).

(3)   Nix the iced tea to prevent kidney stones – According to Loyola University Chicago’s Stritch School of Medicine, if ice tea is your favorite thirst-quencher, you may likely to put yourself into having kidney problems. The culprit is oxalate, a chemical found in tea that is the key for the formation of small salt and mineral crystals. So, I might be ordering lemonade or water that can actually inhibit the growth of kidney stones.

(4)   Invest in Happiness – This is an all time favorite tag, yet it is true. Studies shows that spending money on shopping can make you actually feel better but sooner declines, but having to spend your money on a weekend vacation, having to learn diving or exploring the beaches or fell in love with the nature, it is much more satisfying and a good start to invest.

(5)   Deter dementia with higher education – European researchers have actually added to your pro-school list. If you’re thinking of going back to school again, chances are you reduce the risk of having dementia by 11%. Scientists found that for each year of education you accumulate, education somehow makes the brain better able to compensate for changes brought by dementia.

(6)   Addicted to your ex? Just wait it out – This is how it goes, researchers from New York and New Jersey looks at the brain of an individual who has been recently rejected. According to them, part of the brain that responded to the experiment while the individual was looking to photos of her ex was the same area that is active when cocaine addicts experience cravings. You see? It is an addiction, but an addiction to a person can be broken, unlike any other addiction, IT TAKES TIME.

(7)   Your slim-down secret weapon: A bus pass – It is just simply saying that, one way to slim down is by taking a bus for a ride because according to scientists, it actually helps you to lose weight! Plus, it saves you from spending money on your gas and parking!

(8)   Free yourself from the fear of failure – We all have been talking about this, don’t be afraid, try it out and work it out. “Fear of failure is related to a form of perfectionism, specifically what researchers refer to as socially prescribed perfectionism” according to David E. Conroy, PhD.

(9)   Protect your skin like a pro – Summer is really ON! And it feels like you’re too tired to celebrate summer when the sun is tickling your skin too much! So here’s a tip. Use a sun block instead of sun screen, because sun block has more broad spectrum and usable on all skin types, causing less irritations. Also, reapply at least every two hours while outdoors.

(10)The benefits of saying Thank you- Don’t let good deeds go un-thanked. Saying thank you can actually lead you to an improved mood. Reflect on the ways that others might actually did something to you and touched you, recognize this people by just simply saying thank you.

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What to do when you feel like giving up

             “Don’t stop believing… hold on to that feeling”

                                                                        -Journey

“It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.”

                                                            -William Shakespeare

There are moments in our lives when we feel like we are alone in this dark and empty room, that is full of the things we almost scared about, the things we don’t supposed to see and feel and the things that mostly, eat us alive. We are all human and it is given that we are capable of anything, anything that makes us humane. There are sudden moments in our lives that we feel unimaginably happy and excited, moments in our lives where we almost feel like a feather just floating in the air, or moments in our lives where we feel invisible or just walk into nothingness.

When we’re happy it carries us for a moment, but when we are so down it occupies the moment in our life. But don’t let it take you over.

Whoever you are right now, reading this, I want to help you get through this.

1.      

      You are never alone

Simply think that it is not only you who experience this kind of stuffs. The only difference is how you deal and act on it. Some may passes it by, some don’t actually care, some may be so depressed right now or some may actually thought that they’re bigger than what they’re facing for. And for that, you’re never alone. Share it to a trusted one, your family, your friend, your sister or brother, but most especially share it to your creator and savior.

2.       Remind yourself, why you started this.

Of course, there are reasons for all the causes. Why you ended up depressed or sad? Why give up? What’s the reason to give up? But the root of all these, why you started it off at first? And believe me, if the reason is too strong, you won’t give up.

3.       Don’t hate the player! Change the game!

If you really thought that you’re not good enough at that certain moment in your life, then don’t really hate yourself! Find a way to get what you want! Change the game! Be the rules! Don’t give up!

4.       There is sunshine after the rain

Cliché it may seems but even the song makes up a point. There are no up if there are no downs, no dawn if there are no dark. There is no harm in trying, give it a shot, don’t give up on the first try! And when you feel like you’re in the lowest point of your life, don’t let it knock you down!

5.      Be able to know when to quit.

Sometimes it is not time to give up. But it may be time to quit what you are doing and to try something else.  Giving up something you like is harder than to let go of the things you surely forget in an instance. If you feel like giving up or you are bored a lot, if you feel no real passion or excitement or curiosity change your course. But remember, do not give up if it’s really in your mind and soul, if the fateful bliss of yours keeps whispering to do it that this is the right thing to do, then why not try to do it again?

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8 songs to listen while on a roadtrip

Isn't it good when you have something on your player or radio that can somehow ease your mood over the traffic jam everyday? Sometimes you just have to utilize your time. While waiting for your destination, why not listen to some good feel musics?

Here, are some of my fave songs 😊

1. Elephant - Tame Impala
    When the song just got started, you will love the upbeat tune of it! It's like, while listening into it, you are searching for your wonderland.

2 Always - Panama
   "Always, I remember you"

3. The kids were wrong - Memoryhouse
     Omy Gosh the vooooice, just so amazing.

4. Sweet Disposition - The temper trap

5. Float - Pacific Air
    "If I goooo a-all the way...."

6. Float on - Modest Mouse
    You just have to listen to this band, they are so cool.

7. Mardy Bum - Arctic Monkeys
    Fave band. I am sharing to you now, the wonders of this band. 👏

8. Very Loud - Shout out Loud
    This song has a very good tune, that you can somehow forget the traffic in the road.

Hope you'll like it 😙 Give me some feedback about it!

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What it feels to have a best friend like “Ms. Bulgaria?”

  

First, congrats Miss Universe Pia Wurtzbach!

Today’s Miss Universe 2015 has been super trendy especially on different social media accounts due to what happened on the said event. And Filipinos are very hooked on the event making them to create different memes and using hash tag like #columbianized. It really becomes a main issue especially the announcement of the Miss Universe winner by Steve Harvey, the some scenes of ‘disrespecting’ Miss Universe Pia by other candidates, Miss USA being the “best bestie” of Pia and of course the supports of other candidates like Miss Myanmar and Miss Malaysia and the trending Miss Bulgaria for showing the energy of supporting our Queen Pia.

Having a supporting bff throughout your whole event in life is really a great gift that life can offer to you. It is rare to find one. So when you know you have one, keep it.

“I’d rather have one REAL Best friend than 10 casual friends”

                It is like having a soul sister. You guys are really compatible, the perspectives, the ideas, and the interests are same. Both of you share the same views and outlooks in life. And it is true that it is more a blessing to have a one true real friend than to have so many friends that at the end of the day you can’t count on or you can’t even think to invite for a cup of coffee outside cause you feel indifferent.

“With friends, it is a matter of timing”

                Being in the right place at the right time, and we shall meet again. When it comes to friends, some come and some may go, but the best people in your life, will always stay. And in a cycle of friends, others may not go to some gatherings, others may always attend, but it doesn’t mean that the one who didn’t go that much will not stay in your heart.  Regardless of how many friends we have in our lives or how many cycles we have gone through, there is one thing that we are always searching for — and that is someone we can call a “best friend.”

“Finding a new best friend is as hard as finding your soul mate”

                That’s why when you know you found it, keep it. Even though both of you have something to be done of and need to separate a little while, continue to keep in touch and always remain the pact you guys did. It’s just distance. When you love someone and value them, meters won’t matter. As long as both of you are growing and achieving your dreams, just always support one another.  No matter how long it has been since you last met or how far apart you are, whenever you meet again it feels like home.

“Sometimes home is not a place”

                It is really good to have someone you can always count on, even if your day is sunny and can laugh all day and smile, even if your day is winter and cold and you need to cry for help and even if your day is just as cloudy as your heart. If you have a real best friend, you find a safe place, you became true and no need for hiding, cause she’s also true to you and no need for faking it. You find a safe home.

“You two can read each other’s mind”

                It’s nice to know you have someone who can think the same way you does. You can finish each other sentences or can understand things by just a glance. You guys have the same taste of friendship; you know how to ease each other’s feelings and no need to sugar coat things. It’s an instant connection that makes your heart feel warm.

If you have one, well congratulations!

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Why you should travel alone for sometime?

1. Solitude
The world outside is a terror. You only have yourself to calm your thoughts and feelings, to get away from a hungry world. Being quiet is different from solitude. You have the inner peace and silence, you are reserved. When you travel solo, you'll think about the things in your life. You suddenly figure out what's going on. This is a perfect comfort to yourself.

2. You'll love yourself even more
There are number of reasons to hate yourself when you are surrounded by the chaos of the world. You hate yourself for doing nothing or for doing everything. But travelling alone, you'll figure out who's your real friend, you befriend yourself. There's only one you.

3. You'll be assertive
This is a time for adventure. You travel solo, you'll never know what's going to happen or who you'll meet. It's a total blank, but you're ready to color it. Loneliness will pass, because you found yourself talking, laughing with these different people.

4. EAT
This time it's your choice. You have no doubt of eating your fave sandwhiches, nachos or fish head curry, by thinking if your friends like it or not. It's all up to you.

5. A chance of having a total freedom
You're the driver of your car, you're the leader of this journey, the captain of your ship. You'll be independent, doing whatever you wanted, going whenever you wanted. It is a passion of your mind.

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Which Taylor Swift song your love life is?

1. Love Story
Of course, this is the very popular song of T.S where we all fall in love out of the lyrics and it's a cliche kind of love story of Romeo and Juliet. We've been familiar about that, the kind of love that can't be and have many obstacles around through it, though both of you guys are head over heels to each other and it's a sad thing but fight for it. If it's still in your heart and mind, it is worth taking the risk.

2. Wildest dreams
Awwww... this song is one of my fave. You only see him in your dreams, it is like an imaginary love. The love you both had is just for "entertaining". You both have a good careers in life & you two have an undeniable sparks. But at the end of the day, off the pages, you can't be together, he's got a girl & you only have him in your dreams.

3. We are never ever getting back together
Well, if you are determined with that strong words of yours, sure this is for you  cause you never plan to get back again with him. Somethings can't be mend again & the love you had once is out of the place.

4. Forever & Always
Does he left you and broke up with you through a phone call (this is terrible), does he left you for another girl? And you are just there thinking why he did it and left you hanging? This song denotes for a bad break up. "Did I say something way too honest?/ That made you run and hide like a scared little boy?"

5. Out of the woods
This song is a kind of relationship where you were living day to day not knowing where to go next, or if it was going to go anywhere. It's like he don't have plans for the both of you, you hope for a chance but he don't have an idea what to do next.

6. Blank space
It's your story, it's like a hidden list of the guys you like, love and care about, but some people think of you as crazy and you are one of an obsessed girl.

7. Back to December
This is a sad song, one day you've met, you jive along, you felt something inside of youand makes you dizzy but happy & you can't deny there is something special about it. But one day again, all is gone. You didn't know what happened. It just stop. And all is going in your mind is how is he? You just hope to be back to where things supposed to be back then.

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