12:40 made up poems

Heartbeats

Please don't walk away
don't fade away
don't rush into hush
Let me reveal, let me show
Then amidst all that,
please love me still.


If you're just a glitch
walk away.
I'm done with all the passer by
Let me have a real one.
The one that will stay
even if my hair turns to gray.


I don't need good mornings or good nights
if I can't lean on you during bad days
I don't need you to say eat on time
if you can't be there on waves
I don't need small talks
I need real ones.


I wish that today would finally be my day
a brand new start
a brand new life
I hope that finally I can call someone mine
a life with you
a moment to last
I pray that your love will never fade
a rain won't catch you cold
a sway won't make you go away.
So stay, please let it be you.

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4:40 Made up poems

(Made by yours truly :) 

I swam through the rivers of your soul

-it was so deep and void.

Made up of love’s sacrifices,

that’s never been returned.

How I love to dig down unto it more;

Even though my heart would explode.

You are like a shadow;

So vain and dishonest

I wanted you for all days,

Yet you came without rays.

I needed you when I don’t

Yet you’ve shown like before.

Unmade sheets are very special to me,

it is so honest that I can smell you from within.

It is so honest that I can play what memories lack.

It is so honest that I know I can’t have you back.

You leave me with a scar that’s naked.

Forever thorn, forever unshaken.

This is what you do when you left people’s heart out of the blue.

You show them how red can be hue.

How beautiful it is to meet a stranger,

not knowing you, not knowing him.

But stories are made for one another.

Goodbye to you my dearest man,

For once, I’ve been blown by your laugh,

For once, I’ve been shaken by your touch.

But now, for once, I’ve waken my soul to left you behind.

Simple things make the most of unexpected days.

It will give you peace you keep searching on unwanted scenes.

He’s like the last carousel ride in a fair;

Everyone’s done for the last trail,

Yet I am here round and around till I go.

My letters are not yet frozen,

It still has the mouth to speak out the words I long for you.

It is never been redesigned. It was always for you.

I watched through my window as the pink skies grow wider and wider.

It can fill up the whole town in its arm;

yet I’m still here yearning for love.

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To all the boys we loved before

     

     **To the guy I’ve known for so long, who suddenly become my best friend, my super bud, my food buddy and my confidante, partners in crime for life right? Thanks for being with me all the time you never know how much I appreciate this kind of friendship that we have. It isn’t for just a good time, I know. It feels so easy to talk about anything with you and it feels so safe to share about my problems with you without being judged. I can get the most exact comments from you, no filter, no sugar coating of words, you just say the exact truth. We laugh at the most bizarre things, we act like brothers, we share the common grounds and I thank heavens for sending me a friend like you. No drama.

**To the guy I’ve already forgiven, now. Now is the time I guess, to fill my heart with forgiveness. I will never forget of course, but surely I can forgive you. I don’t want to dwell in that gloomy past. I love myself so I am forgiving you.

**To the guy I’ve met in a deserted lane. We’ve crossed the same path, made a quick glance to one another, held hands but eventually didn’t stay for too long, it’s okay. We didn’t push ourselves too hard. Maybe it’s right, it feels okay but not right for too long. It just happened that we’re walking on that lane for the same day, but have different journeys to take.

**To the guy I’ve hoped. I still didn’t get the chance to meet you or maybe I already did? I don’t know. Maybe we already crossed the path, tend to look on each other but never said anything. I’m wondering what kind of lesson I might get from you. But surely, we’ll know each other.

**To the guy I gave nothing but heartaches. I am deeply sorry. You met me at my worst, where all things just go wrong in my mind, where I can’t think straight, where my only concern is my well being. You love me but all I did was to break your heart. You’ll always be a part of my life, strange as it seems, I learned a lot from you.  Selfish to realize but yes, someone can love me and can offer his whole Universe.  Thank you and sorry, I know you’re doing well now and I wish you well.

**To the guy who crossed my path for a thousand times, I guess you’re free now. I can’t say more, cause all my letters in the past were always about you. So I’ll just stop here for good.

** To the guy, I’m giving my heart, please take care of it. Please have patience with it, please have it for a lifetime. Let’s be psychos, weirdos and crazy together. I can’t wait for the moment when the both of us are just two individuals, watching the sunset, watching the rain from outside, sipping coffee, reading books, going anywhere or nowhere, watching movies (Either X-men or Before sunset will do), telling our stories, fighting to worthless or significant topics we will encounter, or maybe just being us, just two individuals with the same insights and feelings. Let it be like an indie song. 

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To my almost "always"

How can you love a person so much, so genuine, so sweet and then unlove them suddenly? How can you tell your promises to one another and broke them again? How can you say you won’t leave, when all you ever did was to walk away?

Dear  Stranger… again,

                It’s done.  Just like that, it’s over… again.

                You’re a stranger again, just like that.

I guess it will never work out the way we always wanted and right here, right now before the clock ticks to nothingness and before I lose the whole meaning of writing, I’ll never find and will never ask answers from you, simply because I just thought I don’t need them. There were questions that don’t need any answers; it’s like a rhetorical question needing a rhetorical answer.

I just want to go on with my life and by that means, without you.

Thank you, for leaving a trace that surely I will never forget. Still, I know, there will be times that I’ll miss you, I’ll remember you even if I just walk on that stupid lane we used to walked, surely I’ll remember how you say your dreams or you, confessing your love to me, but surely it will also remind me, that these things were all in the past, and that’ll wake me, because hey, I’m in the present.

Thank you, for giving me emotions. Happiness, madness, loneliness and for a time I feel a blood rush into my veins.

It’s funny how things work out, we used to be friends, best friends, turned out to be lovers, then strangers, friends and then lovers again, but you choose to be a stranger again… for a long time, and you suddenly came back again, then we became lovers again, then back to where we used to be… being strangers to each other, am I nuts? Maybe I am.

To tell you honestly, it came to my mind that I shouldn’t regret any single moments I had with you. I guess, it made a part of rebuilding of who I am, for knowing myself deeply, that without these certain moments, without these lessons, I wouldn’t be the person I am right now or the person that I will become.  You are like the every person mentioned in a heartbroken or sad song. Thank you for all those countless memories, for the things you shared, for the laugh, tears you brought into my life, but most of all, for the heartaches that you gave me.

I am also sorry, for not being the person you used to know. I changed a lot. Maybe a part of the reason why is because of what happened to us. But I don’t blame you anymore, this is me right now and you can’t find the old one and to tell you, I can’t find you too.

Up until now, I don’t know what love can bring to me, to us. I just got a realization, that when you break up with people, you also break a part of yourself, you detach from all these strings that once made you together. It is hard. But you have to accept and move on.

I forgive you anyway, maybe it’s not your fault after all, for not loving me anymore, for losing the string, for giving up on our always, maybe that’s just how it goes, cause maybe you’re not the one for me, maybe you’re just a hundred lesson I should learn back then. And right now, the only thing that I should take from all of these is to accept the fact that people come and go and steal your parts and it’s up to you on how to regain yourself again from that heartache.

No one’s to blame, cause maybe it just how our story goes right now… but it is not the end. We should continue to walk on and be strong every day, to learn to love yourself and rebuild your trust. There will be an always for us, maybe not on the person we used to love, maybe from someone else, who knows? Love’s a puzzle, cause maybe the person we love doesn’t deserve us.

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A letter to myself

DEAR ___________

First and for most, I am proud of you no matter what. You’ve come a looong way. This isn’t the time to give up. I know you miss your old self, the old _______ who can smile and be positive about the world, the old you who is a friend to all kinds of people, a hardworking _____, the one who busy herself doing amazing stuffs, the one who is afraid to get a low score test, the one who is imaginably a dreamer for herself and for her family. The old ______ is happy, I know. She never minds the bad in this world, for she doesn’t know back then, all she can see is a bright future, a happy world to live in.

But now, you have learned so much in this world. World isn’t about black and white, no, there are gray, red and blue, it depends. In short, you have learned that the world is not just one sided, it has many faces. You have learned to realize this, because of some experiences that brought you here. Life cannot offer you everything. You have learned love in a deeper way, you started disliking people, and you started to distrust people, even yourself. You have come to realize that fear is eating you alive. You have come to know that you can’t please many people in this world that some people just simply don’t like you and for that, you tried to make another version of you. You tried to be somebody else and it finally came to you that you’re not happy and sooner the system will just eat you up. You started to learn that there are different people in this world, different kinds, angels and monsters, bad and good, superstars and goons. You started knowing your real friends. You kinda made an organization, there are friends just for travel leisure, for fun and games, friends at work, friends you just say hi for a second, and luckily, friends that stays forever.  I tell you what, life isn’t black and white, it is a rainbow. For that, you finally came up with an answer that life is a coloring book, you choose what color to be put on.

When you’re still a child you only see the beautiful basic colors that makes up the world, but when you grow up, you finally realize that there are gray, maroon, fuchsia and beige. You suddenly learn the color palette. In this world, you strive hard, you really did. If you don’t then why are you here anyway? Some people will let you down, judge you, belittle you but let me tell you this, they don’t own you. You own yourself, you have the control besides God, so another thing, ask him. There are moments in your life when you didn’t know what to do, when you are stuck suddenly in a middle of nowhere, you can’t walk a little because you just didn’t know what to do. So, ask God for directions. Just remember, that always do what you love, always reach for that dream, never stop, always give your hundred percent at everything, because in the end, it will pay you a reward. Life isn’t depressing at all, you are not the only one who thinks and feels like an idiot for a moment. When you feel you’re worthless, don’t stay in bed for too long, stand up. And if your parents started nagging you for doing nothing, maybe they are right, you have to do something, cause time’s running up, it won’t wait you, maybe you’re late but you can catch up and when the time comes that you already know what to do, you’re just exact in time. Maybe you’re in a line between “going there” to “finish”, we all are. These feelings of loneliness, sadness, it will fade away once we know who we really are and what we are here for. It is a journey, so embrace every of it. We will all end up being happy and whole at the end. Just remember, don’t stay too long in bed. There’s still a chance for everyone.

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What to do when you feel like giving up

             “Don’t stop believing… hold on to that feeling”

                                                                        -Journey

“It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.”

                                                            -William Shakespeare

There are moments in our lives when we feel like we are alone in this dark and empty room, that is full of the things we almost scared about, the things we don’t supposed to see and feel and the things that mostly, eat us alive. We are all human and it is given that we are capable of anything, anything that makes us humane. There are sudden moments in our lives that we feel unimaginably happy and excited, moments in our lives where we almost feel like a feather just floating in the air, or moments in our lives where we feel invisible or just walk into nothingness.

When we’re happy it carries us for a moment, but when we are so down it occupies the moment in our life. But don’t let it take you over.

Whoever you are right now, reading this, I want to help you get through this.

1.      

      You are never alone

Simply think that it is not only you who experience this kind of stuffs. The only difference is how you deal and act on it. Some may passes it by, some don’t actually care, some may be so depressed right now or some may actually thought that they’re bigger than what they’re facing for. And for that, you’re never alone. Share it to a trusted one, your family, your friend, your sister or brother, but most especially share it to your creator and savior.

2.       Remind yourself, why you started this.

Of course, there are reasons for all the causes. Why you ended up depressed or sad? Why give up? What’s the reason to give up? But the root of all these, why you started it off at first? And believe me, if the reason is too strong, you won’t give up.

3.       Don’t hate the player! Change the game!

If you really thought that you’re not good enough at that certain moment in your life, then don’t really hate yourself! Find a way to get what you want! Change the game! Be the rules! Don’t give up!

4.       There is sunshine after the rain

Cliché it may seems but even the song makes up a point. There are no up if there are no downs, no dawn if there are no dark. There is no harm in trying, give it a shot, don’t give up on the first try! And when you feel like you’re in the lowest point of your life, don’t let it knock you down!

5.      Be able to know when to quit.

Sometimes it is not time to give up. But it may be time to quit what you are doing and to try something else.  Giving up something you like is harder than to let go of the things you surely forget in an instance. If you feel like giving up or you are bored a lot, if you feel no real passion or excitement or curiosity change your course. But remember, do not give up if it’s really in your mind and soul, if the fateful bliss of yours keeps whispering to do it that this is the right thing to do, then why not try to do it again?

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Why you should travel alone for sometime?

1. Solitude
The world outside is a terror. You only have yourself to calm your thoughts and feelings, to get away from a hungry world. Being quiet is different from solitude. You have the inner peace and silence, you are reserved. When you travel solo, you'll think about the things in your life. You suddenly figure out what's going on. This is a perfect comfort to yourself.

2. You'll love yourself even more
There are number of reasons to hate yourself when you are surrounded by the chaos of the world. You hate yourself for doing nothing or for doing everything. But travelling alone, you'll figure out who's your real friend, you befriend yourself. There's only one you.

3. You'll be assertive
This is a time for adventure. You travel solo, you'll never know what's going to happen or who you'll meet. It's a total blank, but you're ready to color it. Loneliness will pass, because you found yourself talking, laughing with these different people.

4. EAT
This time it's your choice. You have no doubt of eating your fave sandwhiches, nachos or fish head curry, by thinking if your friends like it or not. It's all up to you.

5. A chance of having a total freedom
You're the driver of your car, you're the leader of this journey, the captain of your ship. You'll be independent, doing whatever you wanted, going whenever you wanted. It is a passion of your mind.

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The Art of getting what you want

"We don't always get what we want"
"If you want it, take it"
"I'll get what I always wanted"

Somethings are meant to be yours, sometimes it don't, but it's the matter of the process of how you get the things you want. Did you do nothing or you strive strategies to pick your apples?

1. Therapy (Act like a Psychologist)
Don't focus on what your opponent is saying, instead focus on what might she/he is thinking. This applies for money-related negotiations. "Focus on the walk away number not their goal."

2. Ask
You can't get what you wanted if it is not clear and specific. So ask. For an instance, at work if you want to get a raise or a higher position, you better ask for it. How will you know the answers if you don't mind to ask it?

3. Sacrifice first, Success later
It is easy to wish for something but hard to get through it. Are you ready to cross the rocky road? You better be. If you ask then the person will give a risk to grant you, so prove your worth.

4. Be Valuable
Benefit the organization, so they can hold a hard grip on you. If you are productive, a hard working person and is expertise at work, then they won't let you go.

 5. Persistence
Like what I've said, not every thing you wanted can be granted to you. If that happens, don't give up so quickly. Remember that when you get things from hardwork, the fruit is always sweeter than ever.

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The Perks of Being a Nature Lover

Dear Wanderlust,

If you choose to lay on bed all day long and sniff your pillows, turn on the tv and do nothing but touch the ceiling... honey please do get up. I repeat get up.
And once you do, please smile... then put all your travel clothes and essentials. Start surfing the internet and plan where to go. It doesnt matter how far or how close you are. Try to get up & move your muscles. There's a lot of beautiful things outside, the world will give you more only if you ask it.
Have a self fulfillment and a wild heart foe your adventure.
DO TAKE RISKS. MAKE THINGS HAPPEN.

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16 compelling lines that will leave you an aftermath.

1.  No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn’t trying.

2.  Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

3. As we grow up, we realize it becomes less important to have more friends and more important to have real ones.

4. Don’t say you don’t have enough time. You have exactly the same number of hours per day that were given to Helen Keller, Pasteur, Michaelangelo, Mother Teresea, Leonardo da Vinci, Thomas Jefferson, Albert Einstein, etc…

5. No matter how good or bad you have it, wake up each day thankful for your life.  Someone somewhere else is desperately fighting for theirs.


6. Be happy.  Be yourself.  If others don’t like it, then let them be.  Happiness is a choice.  Life isn’t about pleasing everybody.

7.  If you don’t like something, change it.  If you can’t change it, change the way you think about it.

8. There are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, and people we can’t live without but have to let go.


9.   You don’t drown by falling in the water.  You drown by staying there.

10. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.  Don’t save it for a special occasion; today is special.


11. Never do something permanently foolish just because you are temporarily upset.


12. Too many people buy things they don’t need with money they don’t have to impress people they don’t know.  


13.  When you have to start compromising yourself and your morals for the people around you, it’s probably time to change the people around you.

14.   Someone else doesn’t have to be wrong for you to be right.

15.  Happiness is not determined by what’s happening around you, but rather what’s happening inside you.  Most people depend on others to gain happiness, but the truth is, it always comes from within.

16.  Love and appreciate your parents.  We are often so busy growing up, we forget they are also growing old.

Comment your favorite saying or maybe you can share your most overpowering line, tell me about it!

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POPEDOM: POPE Francis and His freeDOM… to touch our hearts

Dear Pope Francis,

            Viva Il Papa! Bienvenido!

 I don’t know how to speak in Latin but let me use my deepest language came from my soul to Thank you Pope Francis! You are so humble and genuine, though you are the highest leader of the Catholic church, still you showed mercy, you showed love from every Filipino, you showed hope, but most of all, you lift our spirits to know, to love and to trust again. You let us know that no matter what, Jesus Christ is always with us! That he loves us, no matter what position, no matter what status we are in.  Thank you for your concern, for the love, and for believing that we Filipinos can stand because we are always loved by our Heavenly Father.

            So for my greatest appreciation for you Pope, here are the words that touch our souls.

-“I’m here to be with you,” he said. “A little bit late, I have to say. But I’m here. I’ve come to tell you that Jesus is Lord. That Jesus never lets us down.”

-“But Jesus is there nailed to the Cross, and from there, he does not let us down. There, he experienced all calamities that we experience. Jesus is Lord, the Lord from the Cross, he is there for you!”

-“And I walk with you all with my silent heart.”

-“We have the security of knowing that we are not going to weaken in our faith, because Jesus has been there before us… In his passion, he assumed all our pain,”

-He encouraged the congregation to look to the maternal care of the Virgin Mary.“In the moments where we have so much pain, where we no longer understand anything, all we can do is grab hold of her hand firmly. And say ‘Mom,’ as a child does to a mother, when he or she feels fear.

-“Let us know that we have Mother Mary, and our older brother, Jesus. We are not alone.”

-“This is what comes from my heart, and forgive me if I have no other words to express this,” his homily concluded. “But please know, Jesus never lets you down. Please know that the love and tenderness of Mother Mary never lets you down.”

-“And holding onto her mantle, and with the love of Jesus on the Cross, let us move forward, always forward, and walk together as brothers and sisters in the Lord. Forward!”

-“When you lose the capacity to dream, you lose the capacity to love, and the energy of this love is lost”

-"You know how to give but you have not yet learned how to receive. Become a beggar. To learn how to receive with humility, to learn how to be evangelized by the poor. Do you know that you too are poor?”

-“If someone is gay and he searches for the Lord and has a good will, who am I to judge? We shouldn’t marginalize people for this. They must be integrated into society”

-“Inequality  is the root of all evil”

Sources:

http://www.rappler.com/views/imho/80761-pope-francis-quotes-ph-officials

http://www.catholicnewsagency.com/news/pope-francis-heartfelt-words-for-typhoon-survivors-jesus-is-there-for-you-80488/

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Boost up your free spirited soul! (The Things you need to do in your 20 something)

One friend said to me that we didn’t live just to exist here on Earth nor live just to live, we somehow given this wonderful gift of Life, because we people doesn’t just want to sprout in this land of mass. We want to truly act on exist.

We want to give, to receive something, to love, to smile, to hug, to fear of something, to get mad, to shine. Generation nowadays, especially teenagers has a larger scope of fulfilling things beyond every line. We tend to be very imaginative and so goal oriented, but that’s not a bad thing anyway. People now are so full of ideas and so full of dreams and that’s when every news, every things has a right for fame.  This list doesn’t account that you should do it by the time you just turned 20, or you’re not 20 by this time, or your age is just not the age you wanted at this moment. Well some of the things listed here don’t need you to be twenty, you can do it even if you’re sixteen, but however, some things need a lot of dedication and hard work. By means of that, is like working to get some bills for your little adventures or trip. Nonetheless, I just did it because people in twenties are in line AFTER teenage days and BEFORE maturity days come. It’s just the matter on how you’ll do it and how you’ll handle it.

I can or YOU can do a hundred list of things do to, but for now let me just take you into the first step of guiding your life by not just existing here. You better WERK it. You better.

1.       Have a healthy exercise- You’re not getting any younger, sooner or later you’ll be out of the calendar dates, (sorry but true) and that means that we are aging. Don’t worry Pal, we are all aging, and it’s a wonderful thing because you know you’re normal. But aging is not an easy thing, your body becomes weaker and somehow some of the things you mostly do when you’re young are a big NO NO when you’re already weak. So before it could happen, why not starting from now, “I’ll start jogging around the village”, “I’ll kick some balls and do some exhibitions”, “I’ll play badminton”. It is a hard task from the start, but later on you’ll get addicted into it and yeah you’ll realize it’s a fun way. You’re not just having fun and you’re not just a healthy young mankind but you can also have bond with your friends or family.

2.       Stay out of your comfort zone- Stay out of bed and stop being so cozy all the time. The sun is coming and the rain is pouring downtown! Celebrate it with open arms! Watch for a movie tonight? Have a date? How about shopping? Watch live concerts? Or basketball plays? YOU CAN DO IT.

3.       Food hunting- You’ll never get tired of this one, because nowadays, there’s so many resto, bar, coffee shops looking for you my friend! Why not bring the Gals and the Guys and have some early breakfasts or a lunch time or a late dinner or just a one great café time? Not just the foods in front of you will make your tummy happy but the unending stories with your friends will do the best.

4.       Learn some new things!- Learn a new dance routine, a new sport or learn to paint. Do the things you didn’t know from the start and be amaze that you can do it anyhow! It is a fun thing for you to know more about yourself!

5.       Now’s your time to choose your favorite author-  Miss that book last month? Wondering why The Fault in our stars is so popular and you’re still sticking to the old fantasy book? Move your ass out and check on the book store so you can enjoy and just relax at your home base.

6.       Frame-up!- Base on my experience, I really do have fun taking photos of nature, buildings, my outfit of the day and sharing my adventures online! And you know what I’m talking about! Yes, Instagram it! Or better yet, HAVE YOUR OWN BLOG!

7.       Pursue your frustrated dreams- Want to paint? Dance? Sing? You can do it. Now you’re in the edge of taking risks and betting your adventures, now’s the time to learn the things you want for a long time ago! Take a step and later on when you already know what to do, you just see yourself smiling.

8.       Learn to drive/Overdrive- Remember you’re not the old dude who can’t enjoy just being yourself or can’t do anything without friends. You’re in the line of happiness and fulfill your heart with so much fun! Bring your car and do the road trip! Whether all by yourself or with friends! The important thing is that you play the perfect music so that you’re energy can boost up.

9.       Have a haircut!- Bored of your old look? Or the everyday all year round face of the day? Well have a risk! Do change your haircut and if doesn’t work out, well at least it isn’t permanent and you’ll have something to laugh about! Plus you can still change it.

10.   Sizzling kitchen- Don’t know anything about cooking or baking? Then grab some cook book and make the kitchen heat up (well not literally), or you can hang out with your best bud or even your mom!

11.   Travel the WORLD!- Tell you what, it is the best feeling to travel and see the beautiful scenes, people, culture with your own two eyes! You’ll just imagine how beautiful the world is.

12.   Do sport- Girls and Guys can both learn this stuff, aside from the healthy benefits it can give to you, you’ll just find yourself enjoying seeing that beautiful body in front of the mirror and yes it is sweeter because you did a great job keeping that hard work and determination up!

13.   Connect with your family- There is no such thing as perfect, same with the relationship you had your family. But now’s your time to reconnect with them and share your adventures with them! Have a wonderful night with them, do the things you planned last time but didn’t made it, bond with them and have a wonderful day with the people who won’t left you no matter what.

14.   Learn a new language-  A new lesson to learn!

15.   Volunteer-  With all the blessings you have in your hands, why not give back? Help some charities, teach the street children to read and write, donate blood, volunteer— with all your heart and willingness!

16.   Win an award- Give yourself a shot and win that thing over! It will guarantee yourself for obtaining and striving hard for that thing.

17.   Save some bills- Everybody’s need to save some money, because bills are just like “easy come, easy go” buddy. So save some and when you feel like buying some new clothes, at least you have something to get into your pocket.

18.   Write for yourself- Click this site Futureme.org because…. Just because! It is so amazing to talk to yourself and write down all the dreams, the goals, to comments you have in your life. Set the date for about 5 or 10 years later and after some years, realizing you write a letter for yourself is such an amazing feeling and at the same time a fun one to enjoy.

19.   Go to camping- Meet new friends and enjoy your daily tasks!

20.   Do scuba diving/Surf the ocean- Refresh, rewind, aaaaand just do the dance along with the sea creatures while swaying with that fresh water touching your skin! REFRESH!

21.   Meet your superstar- Been longing to see your favorite actor? Actress? Singer? Model? Then do some stalking and meet them! but not the creepy dude following them ALWAYS. Just have some good updates about their shoots, concerts, mall tour and see them on sight!

22.   Fall in Love- Yes, my friend. If you already have someone to lean on then you’re good, but if you still waking with yesterdays and the past, please my friend, now’s the time to really move on and part of it is by knowing something new, SOMEONE new, meet some friends and fall in love. But don’t get too hurry to just fall without feeling. I bet you don’t want to happen the same old story right? So just SLOW DOWN, keep your pace on and just feel the moment.

23.   DO YOUR OWN BUCKET LIST- This is your life, you control it. So no matter what people say, if it makes you happy, if this thing makes you feel human then check that box on the things you want to do written on your bucket list!

HAVE A HAPPY LIFE MY FRIEND.

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YOU’RE FORGIVEN. I’M SORRY AM I FORGIVEN?

This page is all yours. Yes all yours. Because this page is for the people I hated, for the people I hurt, for the people I almost forgotten because of what I did to them or what they did to me. You may not know how you affect other people lives, but yes, we are all part of this cycle. It is the stupid cycle of affection. Every action has an effect to other people—bad or good. We may think it is okay with them and its okay to play jokes on them, but we didn’t know exactly what they think INSIDE. So right here, before it’s too late I am going to forgive you, now let me ask you, are you ready to forgive me?

First, to the people I hurt, consciously or not.

Some people I know I hurt, some people I don’t. But yeah that’s the thing, I know I hurt other people’s feeling, but sometimes I didn’t quite know I already step on their lane. So here is it, I AM SORRY.

 (1)To the girl sis I had when I was still coping with the new vibes of my life. Girl, you help me a lot, you teach me many things I wouldn’t forget especially the sweet things you did. You made our friendship more colorful than what you may think. I am glad that I met someone like you. You are really strong and a tough girl, but deep inside you’re my sister. I miss our endless talks, our laughs, our stupid jokes. I miss you. I miss hanging out with you. I miss your stories. I miss you. Don’t ever think that I forgot you as my friend, don’t ever think that. Cause honestly, I miss you so much. If you ever think that I left you behind, I am sorry my friend. I am willing to be your other sister again. I love you and I Miss you.

(2)To my so called ‘baby sister’. Oh my gosh what went wrong? Why we suddenly stop talking and chatting or even texting? Thank you honey for sharing your stories and even your secretes to me. I’m sorry if I blurted some of them. But honestly I keep my pace on with that. I miss talking with you. I miss the talks about our love lives, about our cute endearments. I miss your honest advice. I may be older than you, but you’re way too cooler than me. I’m sorry if you felt I treated our friendship like a trash. Don’t ever think about that. I love you and I Miss you.

(3) To my Grade 5-6 Bestfriend. Hey! How are you? I hope you’re doing fine. I miss you sweet girl. I miss our girl talks; I miss the crazy things we did. I miss hanging out with you, because you’re the girl that cherishes the friendship the most. I’m sorry if you didn’t feel that you’re important to me. I really appreciate and I love when you visit into our house and we have a little chit chat. Some part of my happy life are because of you darling. I miss you please forgive me if I didn’t cope up with our friendship. I love you and I miss you.

(4) For some people who’ve I hurt that I didn’t know. Well, sorry, really. I didn’t mean it and I want to have a good pact with you. I’m sorry if I offended you, if I hurt you physically or emotionally. I’M REALLY SORRY. AM I FORGIVEN?

Lastly, to the people who broke my heart, my soul.

There’s good news for you. You’re forgiven.

(1)    To the boy bestfriend I trusted so much but chose to break my trust, okay I hate you for that. REALLY. I hate you so much that I bring those bad feelings till now. I can’t even imagine why you have to do those things to a girl who trusted you so much and treated you like a brother. Honestly, you’re such a jerk. But what came up to me is that, what am I gonna do with those bag full of bad shit feelings about you? I can’t carry them anymore. I am too tired to feel the hatred for you. So I am giving it away now. I am willing to forgive you. I love myself and I am giving myself a treat— a chance of freedom.

(2)    To my first love. Thank you. Just be happy. It’s not your fault anyway. Though, you somehow made me feel like a trash. But again thank you, you don’t know how I am grateful right now. I am much more complete. Keep safe. Let’s be happy! You’re forgiven.

(3)    For people who’ve hurt me, even for a little span of time, for breaking my heart, for wanting me to cry, for all the stupid gossips you made just to ruin me, for all the bad things you did, for all the judgments you assure is right about me, I hate you. But I chose to forgive you. I don’t want to feel the bad things right now. Because it is happy to live life without so much hatred in your heart.

So I am giving you the question of a lifetime, a one chance of becoming happy.

Are you okay with keeping those shits? Or can you exactly say sorry and forgive?

Think about it.

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MOTIVATE YOURSELF!

Sh*t happens. All the time.

You make mistakes. You screw up. Things don’t go the way you hoped..

There are times when we feel so down, depressed, sad, insecure and suddenly we just feel that the there is something wrong with you or the people around you. Sometimes, we don’t have the verge to tell it to anyone maybe we’re shy, clueless of what will they think, keeping your pride or just sometimes you feel at that moment that you don’t have a friend and you’re alone. Sometimes we all think that we’re insignificant, that we can’t do these tasks ahead of us and we have no direction in life.

It’s not a disease people. We all came to the point of acting like Edward Scissorhands being so depressed and cover yourself with sheets. We don’t have that thing. We can still manage to live a life beyond imagination. We can achieve dreams and set for our goals and aspire for it. We can still motivate ourselves and learn through it. People’s minds are so powerful.

Whilst I’m certainly no expert at this whole life game, there are a few methods I’ve found that work quite well for me when I’m feeling stuck in a rut.

(1)  Write down the problems that makes you feel down

It is a way of realizing and at the same time contributing to your state of mind as a way of dealing with all these problems whether it’s a small thing up to the biggest issue of your life. It will make you somehow make a plan of how to deal with it and then there comes of how motivating yourself through it. It’s the first step of realizing what should you deal with these problems in your life.

(2)  Let go of the ideal plan.

We have to accept it, not all of the things we used to plan will turn out that way. It was a way of planning in order for your mind to organize things in that day, it is what you made up. But reality is unpredictable; no one can plan ahead of things. It is always surprising. Don’t expect that what you plan will eventually happen. You have to accept the things that change that unfortunately didn’t go as what you had planned.

 “To help yourself, you must be yourself. Be the best that you can be. When you make a mistake, learn from it, pick yourself up and move on.” Dave Pelzer

(3)   Take baby steps

It’s like doing tasks from the smallest to the biggest. If you think that problems occur as a whole bunch of shits then you would figure that you can’t make it and it is just so hard to try to do it. So the cure here is take baby steps. Start from the bite-size tasks and work out a timetable for getting it done.  Don't be too ambitious otherwise you'll fall behind and end up back at square one, but plan properly and give yourself a reasonable window of time to get each piece in place. No huge success starts from what it is, it always starts from the very beginning.

(4)Set some goals

Without goals, you probably will not know if you are really accomplishing anything. Set some small goals and then try your best to achieve it and work hard. It will be good practice for you if you have not done that before.

(5) Find out what motivates you – it is not the same for everyone.

It seems like the answer of the question but it is true. Find what’s inspiring you. We all have this kind of different things that will boost our energy and therefore making us inspired again or motivated to do the tasks. For example, some people find comfort through money, music, family, relationship, TV shows, movies, or idolize actors. Whatever it is, it is one of the ways of inspiring yourself that will lead you to be better and find comfort again and so will guarantee that you’ll work will done finish.

(6)  Find Your Itch 

What is keeping you from working. Don’t let the itch continue without isolating it and removing the problem. Are you unmotivated because you’re tired, afraid, bored, restless or angry? Maybe it is because you aren’t sure you have time or delegated tasks haven’t been finished yet.

(7)  Deconstruct Your Fears 

If you need to achieve those tasks, destroy the entire negative aura especially the fear. I’m sure you don’t have a phobia about getting stuff done. But at the same time, hidden fears or anxieties can keep you from getting real work completed. Isolate this fear and you’ll make yourself confident again to handle the cases around you.

(8)  Start with just five

Try the five minute rule.  Tell yourself this simple phrase: "I'm just going to work on this for five minutes. Five minutes and then, if I want to, I can do something else for a while." The five-minute rule works magic. You know why? Because more often than not that little push will be enough to get you going and keep going until you've finished the task. It’s like having yourself work and then take a break and it will not hassle you or panic you. You’ll definitely make things work out by then.

(9)  Think outwards.

It is easy to think the negatives than to try to imagine the positive. It is easy to pity oneself but hard to motivate. But actually you just need to think outwards. Look at the ways that can help you maybe it’s our friends, partners, family members and by just accident even the strangers. You’ll find that everyone you meet has problems. You’re not alone.

(10) Move your body.

Exercise can be great if used in a constructive way. It’s a good way to get back to our primal roots, and hit the reset button on those negative thoughts. My head usually feels a lot clearer after a run, climb, grapple or workout. It’s like meditating yourself throughout it. A little exercise can somehow make you feel good and refresh and therefore, will let your mind to think better and not pushing yourself too hard..

(11)Take a rest.

Relax. Take a deep breath, and slow down. It’s not like all problems are manage by you. All people have that. But some learned to manage it well. Take a meditation session, a hot bath or a massage. A long nap perhaps. We all get tired and we need a rest. Maybe after that you’ll find yourself again heading forward.

(12) Shout it from the rooftops

Don’t keep it too much from yourself or inside your chest. Shout it out. It will make you feel good somehow. Tell the world and your pride and self respect won't let you back down.

(13) Embrace gratitude.

Think of this. You think all of the problems you have but you forget to acknowledge the things you have, the blessings you have.  Remind yourself that you are grateful for the things you have and some other people are still finding it. Even mistakes and challenges. They’re opportunities to see what we’re made of. They give us a chance to grow. Remember that being happy doesn’t mean you have no problems at all. It means you’ve become better at dealing with them.

YOU CAN MAKE IT. I BELIEVE IN YOU. HAVE A GREAT DAY 

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