12:40 made up poems

Heartbeats

Please don't walk away
don't fade away
don't rush into hush
Let me reveal, let me show
Then amidst all that,
please love me still.


If you're just a glitch
walk away.
I'm done with all the passer by
Let me have a real one.
The one that will stay
even if my hair turns to gray.


I don't need good mornings or good nights
if I can't lean on you during bad days
I don't need you to say eat on time
if you can't be there on waves
I don't need small talks
I need real ones.


I wish that today would finally be my day
a brand new start
a brand new life
I hope that finally I can call someone mine
a life with you
a moment to last
I pray that your love will never fade
a rain won't catch you cold
a sway won't make you go away.
So stay, please let it be you.

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Every Sunday is a Memory

Collection of made up poems by yours truly.

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4:40 Made up poems

(Made by yours truly :) 

I swam through the rivers of your soul

-it was so deep and void.

Made up of love’s sacrifices,

that’s never been returned.

How I love to dig down unto it more;

Even though my heart would explode.

You are like a shadow;

So vain and dishonest

I wanted you for all days,

Yet you came without rays.

I needed you when I don’t

Yet you’ve shown like before.

Unmade sheets are very special to me,

it is so honest that I can smell you from within.

It is so honest that I can play what memories lack.

It is so honest that I know I can’t have you back.

You leave me with a scar that’s naked.

Forever thorn, forever unshaken.

This is what you do when you left people’s heart out of the blue.

You show them how red can be hue.

How beautiful it is to meet a stranger,

not knowing you, not knowing him.

But stories are made for one another.

Goodbye to you my dearest man,

For once, I’ve been blown by your laugh,

For once, I’ve been shaken by your touch.

But now, for once, I’ve waken my soul to left you behind.

Simple things make the most of unexpected days.

It will give you peace you keep searching on unwanted scenes.

He’s like the last carousel ride in a fair;

Everyone’s done for the last trail,

Yet I am here round and around till I go.

My letters are not yet frozen,

It still has the mouth to speak out the words I long for you.

It is never been redesigned. It was always for you.

I watched through my window as the pink skies grow wider and wider.

It can fill up the whole town in its arm;

yet I’m still here yearning for love.

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To all the boys we loved before

     

     **To the guy I’ve known for so long, who suddenly become my best friend, my super bud, my food buddy and my confidante, partners in crime for life right? Thanks for being with me all the time you never know how much I appreciate this kind of friendship that we have. It isn’t for just a good time, I know. It feels so easy to talk about anything with you and it feels so safe to share about my problems with you without being judged. I can get the most exact comments from you, no filter, no sugar coating of words, you just say the exact truth. We laugh at the most bizarre things, we act like brothers, we share the common grounds and I thank heavens for sending me a friend like you. No drama.

**To the guy I’ve already forgiven, now. Now is the time I guess, to fill my heart with forgiveness. I will never forget of course, but surely I can forgive you. I don’t want to dwell in that gloomy past. I love myself so I am forgiving you.

**To the guy I’ve met in a deserted lane. We’ve crossed the same path, made a quick glance to one another, held hands but eventually didn’t stay for too long, it’s okay. We didn’t push ourselves too hard. Maybe it’s right, it feels okay but not right for too long. It just happened that we’re walking on that lane for the same day, but have different journeys to take.

**To the guy I’ve hoped. I still didn’t get the chance to meet you or maybe I already did? I don’t know. Maybe we already crossed the path, tend to look on each other but never said anything. I’m wondering what kind of lesson I might get from you. But surely, we’ll know each other.

**To the guy I gave nothing but heartaches. I am deeply sorry. You met me at my worst, where all things just go wrong in my mind, where I can’t think straight, where my only concern is my well being. You love me but all I did was to break your heart. You’ll always be a part of my life, strange as it seems, I learned a lot from you.  Selfish to realize but yes, someone can love me and can offer his whole Universe.  Thank you and sorry, I know you’re doing well now and I wish you well.

**To the guy who crossed my path for a thousand times, I guess you’re free now. I can’t say more, cause all my letters in the past were always about you. So I’ll just stop here for good.

** To the guy, I’m giving my heart, please take care of it. Please have patience with it, please have it for a lifetime. Let’s be psychos, weirdos and crazy together. I can’t wait for the moment when the both of us are just two individuals, watching the sunset, watching the rain from outside, sipping coffee, reading books, going anywhere or nowhere, watching movies (Either X-men or Before sunset will do), telling our stories, fighting to worthless or significant topics we will encounter, or maybe just being us, just two individuals with the same insights and feelings. Let it be like an indie song. 

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That thing called “Moving on” ( Top cliché lines you’ll always hear when suffering from heartbreak)

Sometimes… though, hearing it a thousand times… it goes too well.

This is a true story. It is definitely is.

Dear Heartache,


      Be strong- There’s no other way but to be strong. If you insist to be weak all the time then darling you're the one who’s hurting yourself. It is too much. The only person you’re believing for and hoping for is you. Yes yourself. You have to believe that you can do this, even if thousands of memories came flashing back one by one.

   Cry- Contrary to the first one, well this only means that don’t act too strong, like acting nothing happened, like everything’s perfect and nothing actually hurt deep inside. Yes you have to be strong in a way that you believe that you can pass this heartbreaking situation that you can actually move on and feel happy again. Ignoring is so different from moving on. When you actually ignore, it more comes to you that nothing is finished, that you actually leave your heart unasked. Cry, if you feel hurt and if it makes you better… then cry. There’s no crime it in. It actually makes your heart feel better than keeping all the hurt inside.

   Don’t blame him/her, don’t blame yourself- Okay, maybe he’s/she’s the one who made the mistake, or maybe you. The point is, it is already done. You guys already made a choice. You’ve hurt one another, and that’s not a good thing but in reality it happens. Say sorry for fooling around and if he/she wants a second chance then you’re all good, maybe you don’t need to read this. But if it doesn’t go too well, then don’t blame anyone for what happened. Sometimes, the person you love and believe for was not the person you love anymore or maybe sometimes believing that he’s/she’s the one wasn’t the answer for forever. It happens. One day you love the person you are with and then the next day you woke up not feeling the same love you share with him/her... it doesn’t feel the same way again.

      Be with your friends- The crazy people don’t leave you just like that. It maybe heartbreaking to be with them while talking about your problems and thinking that something change and thinking that you are sad and single. Well, the break up just happened, so tell them, voice out if you feel comfortable. Hang out with them, cause sometimes, they bring the fresh jokes ever and wishing that you can smile just for a while.

      Talk to a new friend- Talking to a friend about your story is a good thing. But sometimes you need someone new, it helps because your new friend doesn’t have to be bias in terms of advising about your problems and believe it or not, sometimes you mostly said the loudest words you kept from your friends. Lastly, you get new encouraging words from your new friend. (Watch “That thing called tadhana”)

           Don’t hide in the dark side- Go somewhere! Somewhere, where you can voice out your feelings alone, where you can think all the things that happened between you and your guy/girl. Refresh your mind and help yourself to keep the track back. Feel the moment of finally being alone, okay feel the hurt, but after suffering from your deep thoughts, learn to be appreciative. Sometimes you have to come into this kind of scene because it is part of your life.

        Think about the good side- Maybe there’s something good that will come. So cliché, but yeah, you know what they say… someone leaves, someone comes. Think about the bright side darling, it maybe hurtful at first, but once you get the idea of finally spending time with your lost long friends, your family, your siblings or maybe spending a lot by yourself, you sometimes feel more appreciative about the person that is around you. There are a lot of people that loves you even if that one person leaves you. There is someone coming ready to save you and this time it is the right one.

             Try- Don’t be afraid of meeting someone new. It comes with readiness. Don’t try if you’re not ready… yet. Try and believe again in the magic of love. How can you know he’s the right one if you didn’t even try because you’re too scared? I can’t promise you that when the right one comes, you’ll never be hurt again but that’s full of shit. You have to remember that when you started to love, you have to be ready for pain. But … if he’s/she’s really the one that God wants you to be with, then no matter what happened… he’s/she’s always be your forever.

             Accept- Accept the changes that will happened to you. The daily habit of being with him/her was no longer on your planner. It’s time to accept the big changes in your life and change it with the small ones up to the big ones. Once you’ve accept the truth… slowly you mend the broken heart.

             Pray- Eat. Pray. Love. Simple. Eat for you to be full. Pray for you to be live. Love for you to be loved. 

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For Guys: Have her with your mouth (Better ways to communicate with your girl)

Dear Stagger guys,

                                I use the word “stagger” as an adjective and not a verb, for all the guys who mostly happened to be shaky and unsteady when it comes talking to your “special girl”, we’ve all seen this kind of scenario in movies, right? If you guys remember the movie I love you Beth Cooper, then mostly you know what I mean. I bet you also know the Sorcerer’s apprentice right? The guy staggers his words whenever he sees or started talking with the apple of his eye. Believe me, it only happens to be that unfortunate because these guys mostly fell out of love, fell out of sight and mostly, fell out of words.

                                Then here comes the guy who has all the confidence in the world, the football player guy, the varsity player and the hunky-dunky in campus. They all communicate well when they talk to their team mates, coach, teachers, or some other girls in campus but not to the one who they truly admire. And that’s where the issue comes.

                                Some other guys thought that talking too logical or too intelligent will make them superior in conversation leading to the false belief that this kind of talking will make their girl fall for their words, but some girl, they don’t buy it. They don’t actually swallow your word-tionary.

So, to make her finally decide that you’re someone’s worth talking to, and maybe someone’s worth wasting the night with, then here are some tips for you guys!

(             (1)    Don’t be too logical.

                                -Yes, it is good to hear some witty words to you guys, but not to the point that you overcome your girl’s emotion and believes. Believe me, it will hurt them. Thinking that this guy is being too logical for their first date is a no no. So try to listen and sympathize and move on after.

        (2) Don’t tell stupid things

                                -You know the stupid things, you know that. Now, when it comes to the girl don’t tell words that will make them think that this guy is too cocky or too selfish.

        (3) Have an answer

                                -This is mainly the thing, when she asks you “What do you want to eat?” most guys will answer “I don’t know, what do you want to eat?” The thing is girls and also guys don’t know what exactly we want or feel. So when they asked you give an answer, at least you made a comment, an idea for her to based, if she doesn’t likes your idea, then at least you could know, and if she does, then you win.

        (4) Don’t interview

                                -This is about getting to know the answer, not the case that the girl is applying for you as an assistant. Sure, you want to know her likes or what kind of things she get interested, but always remember that you like this girl and you want to know more about her, not in the matter that you have to interview her. Talk and have a real conversation.

        (5) Sorry not sorry

                                -Just stop saying the sorry. Putting the word sorry before and after the sentence makes you lame in front of her, plus it made some girls think that you truly made something wrong.

PLUS: A manly hand shake will always do the first introduction of you. Depending on how you acted on your firm grip hand shake with another man then somehow it defines how you firstly communicate with them. For your girls, have the proper hand shake if you know what I mean.

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WHY DO WE STAY ON INTOXICATING RELATIONSHIPS? LEAVE OR STAY?

People create the illusion of love. Why do we need to love? Why someone has to love? Is it really needed? For some quite reasons, YES, it is necessary. Just imagine why. You wouldn’t work so hard on that stupid office not if your love one’s depends on you. You wouldn’t study so hard on those stupid textbooks not if your mom whom you love wants you to learn and grow. You wouldn’t eat those damn green veggies not if you love yourself and your body.

Same things as here. Why do people stay on relationship that is full of sick lame gestures and is intoxicating? It is like you’ve eaten a lot and you’re already full but still you need to eat the remaining dish. Too much and you’re already going to vomit.

Too much is bad. Too much will make you feel like drowning.

But why do people have this power to swallow everything and just say “its okay” even though it’s not anymore?

We give our partner’s a chance- The reason why you keep on staying even though your heart doesn’t feel so happy is that you don’t lose the chance to hope that someday he’ll/she’ll change, for the better, for the both of you to be happy. You let yourself thinking that “I love him/her so I’ll wait” you wait and you wait. You stay because you know he’s/she’s better than that, he still can make you happy. She still can understand you.  At some point it isn’t bad, it can be three things (1) You love him/her so much that you are willing to wait (2) You’re just afraid to admit to yourself that there’s no turning back, that you made a mistake of choosing, of deciding (3) Your ego.

You get suddenly deaf by hearing the word ‘Alone’- Nobody wants to be alone. No one. If you want to be ALONE for the rest of your life then you better get your packs on and live on MARS. We all need someone, somebody to lean on, to give on, and to receive on. “No man is an island”. So just by thinking that you leave your partner, you became suddenly panic about the world “ALONE”, you can’t be alone right? You are afraid that after breaking up with your partner, you ended being alone. You suck on dates; you don’t know the right thing to do. You suddenly feel new about the dating cycle. But will you still stay even if you keep crying at night?

You’re afraid to leave “The one”- This is wrong, love isn’t about being assured, being assured that you should always have someone, assured that you will get home bringing something and nothing. But love is a game you see? You have to make a bet. How you’ll know if he’s the one or she’s the one if you’re not trying to make a chance of a lifetime to bet?

You thought about not moving at all- We are human and so we are not safe of anything, sooner or later we’ll all get hurt—by someone— strangers or even the love of your life. The thing is why you should keep on staying on a relationship that’s teaching you to move on SLOWLY and PAINFULLY? It is just the dead end, you have to MOVE ON.

There are two things either you stay or leave.

Stay- Okay, give them a chance, see what will happen, see if he’s/she’s keeping up. See if you can no longer take the pain, the hurt, see if you can still love the same person everyday but still keeps on hurting you, without him knowing it.

Leave- Take a gamble, decide whether to love yourself above all and choose to be happy. To choose to meet new friends and decide to achieve your pasts dreams, to live by yourself, to explore and learn more things about you, to take a rest and take everything slowly and finally to gamble again for falling in love.

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Cheesy Gestures (Based on Movies) that’ll make your partner’s heart melts.

11. The Classic Boom box! (From the Movie ‘Say Anything’)

-          What else can you do once a guy outside your window brings some boom box and let the beat goes on? What else? Doesn’t the beat goes the same as your heart beat? Why not? It’s a classic gesture and teenagers mostly find it ‘ewww’ but what else can you missed with this kind of thing for love? It’s simple as sweet and it designates just how much you love your partner. Additional for the perfect music and that’s it. Plus, why not look up for the hottie John Cusack? WE MELT.

12. Singing in the open field (From the Movie ’10 things I hate about you’)

-          “You’re just too good to be true, can’t take my eyes off you, you feel like heaven to touch all I wanna hold you so much”…. Definitely one of the sweetest gestures of all. I mean how can you not say no to a guy who’s going to sing ‘Can’t take my eyes off you’ and sways and moves like a pro with some help from the band? And how can you not pee in your pants? Oh yeah well, it’s because of the late Heath Ledger and his curly long hair. I Missed that though. Well, it’s a great gesture to do and surprise your partner. You’ll find out that you have an inner sway, moves and a hot voice to sing this to him/her.

    

3.       Draw your Partner! (From the Movie ‘Titanic’)

-          Let your artistic side be known and let your fingers do the magic and touch your partner’s heart. It is so simple but once you’ve done it, it becomes extraordinary. Why? It’s because you draw the most beautiful piece you have. It is the eyes that catch your partner’s soul. You captivated their hearts. And once it is already done, you both look at it and there’s nothing sexier than that.

4.       Do the signature move! (From the Movie ‘Dirty Dancing’ and ‘Crazy, Stupid Love’)

-          Just imagine the signature move that Jennifer Grey and Patrick Swayze did along with the song ‘Time of my Life’, there’s nothing to compare on and it has the most magical moment once the lifting portion is shown. You can do it also, just what Ryan Gosling and Emma Stone did, and part of a challenge for them at first, but the move was also a sign of hotness. Both of you can enjoy this and to tell you, it’s the girl that’ll fly and soar high.

5.       A photography studio (From the Movie ‘A crazy thing called love’)

-          Simple as by doing capturing your partner’s lovely face and keeping his/her smiles and memories. It is by letting your partner knows that you adore them and more than anything else it is by saying they captured your heart just before the camera shots.

6.       Giving a CD Tape/Mix Tape (From the Movie ‘Perks of being a wallflower)

-          It’s like, letting her/him enter another part of your world it is because you let him/her know more about you. You taught your partner how to know you well and part of that is by giving him the tape you listen to and mostly the song you dedicate for him/her. There’s nothing sweeter than that, because just imagine you listen both to the kind of song that your hearts will always remember.

7.       Showing him/her the stars (From the Movie ‘A walk to Remember’)

-          Well not literally speaking, but of course you can show the stars for the love of your life, but most importantly it is by showing him/her the sparks and the light that these stars can give. I bet you get it right?

8.       Build your Dream… House? (From the Movie ‘The Notebook’)

-          If you’re man and you want to give the best for your girl, then the dream house is a good catch. But more of that, it is by building the dreams you both have, either abstract or concrete. 

9.       Take a motor ride after prom (From the Movie ‘The Prom’)

-          After the dancing and all in prom, why not bring your girlfriend into a night ride with your best buddy? Your motor of course not the car, because believe me, your motor is way hotter than your car by that night. Do it while having the song of Shout out Loud’s ‘Impossible’ then after that you’ll have the best prom ever.

10.       Sing to her the Bon Jovi Song (From the Movie ‘A lot like Love’)

-          Dude, it’s your best chance, sing ‘I’ll be there for you’ in your sweetest voice and bring your best guitar. Knock and surprise your baby with this kind of hot love song that for sure will melt her heart. Remember that Bon Jovi never gets out of line. He always rock.

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WHY DO GIRLS FALL FOR THE ‘WRONG’ GUY?

Does he leave you hanging in the dust? Does he tell you that he’s not into you? Ouch. Well I think that’s really a hard one. Why do every girls fall to the complex guys in town?

 I remember this line once while watching 13 going on 30, this girl ask J.Garner “How come the ones you like, never like you?” I mean its stupid right? Someone like you, don’t you ever think to like them back too? That’s when free will comes.

But really, why we have this common question that we girls fall for the complex guy? I have this friend (let’s just name her Pam) that has guy friend (name it as Jack) at their school and they were like really super close that they treat one another as the best guys on Earth. They are both singles and also both ready to commit. Jack brings the best things just for Pam. For an instance, Jack treats Pam so special than any other girls in school. Jack always brings something special just for Pam and Pam consider it as sweet and something more than just being friends. And that is the issue. Cause after some time, Pam finds out that Jack is in love with other girl. And that was like a wakeup call for Pam to wake up and be alert.

(1)   Sometimes, we girls do assume that the guy who’s treating us ‘differently’ likes us back the way we like them, which is totally not an A+ grade. And because we assume that he likes us, we tend to fall in love with them and after learning to love them we find out that he’s not liking you back the way you like them only because you assume that he likes you because of the small sweet things he did to you, It will only be considered a fact if the guy truly and admittedly tells you that he’s into you or he loves you. In short, you misinterpret the things he did for you.

But don’t worry; sometimes it’s not really our fault.  

(2)  Guys sometimes give false hopes. There are guys who treat every other girl special only because they want or it’s in their guts to do that thing without any shame on their body. There are signs that you can tell that this guy is not really serious about you and just giving you nothing.

(3)  Usually guys treat the girl he really likes or he’s into. The fruit of the tree is that, he’s not ready for any commitments. So the thing is, he’s trying to make up with you, tries to hang out with you and have a meaningful conversation but in the end, nothing happens. Nothing runs out the line, only because he’s not ready.

(4)  Then there are guys who’ll court you and will make you the luckiest girl living on planet. But after some days hanging out and making stories of your own, he will just leave you. Why? Some guys are so confuse about everything and anything especially about their selves.  They are not so sure about them being serious on a relationship, or maybe confuse about their status and sadly about his feelings about you. So the tendency is that you fall but he didn’t know if he really loves you that much. 

(5)  Guys of course are not matured enough to handle you or the feelings they have for you. When you declare your love to them, they’ve been thinking about it all day but guys really don’t know what to do. And it may hurt you maybe by the way he’ll tell you but he’s not matured enough to handle that.

(6)  Girls give the wrong impression.

(7) Girls sometimes like the guys they’d usually seen on movies, on videos or on shows. ‘OMG Channing Tatum is so hot on step-up’! Then there’s this guy you really like on school that is good on dancing and you find him cute or whatever. Then you make friends with him and accidentally you fall. That’s the thing. He only lives in fantasies.

(8) Sad but true, but usually we believe in their sweetest lies and simply because that wrong guy usually says the right words for us to believe in them. Woman tend to like smooth talkers who say what they want to hear, to bad 99% of them are sociopathic liars.

(9)  Girls are people. So we decide, we made the wrong choice and we fall and ditch. And that’s how life goes. But we learn from it. We may fall to the wrong guy that we’ll hurt us and broke us apart, but who knows? Because of it we learn from our mistakes and we learn to control our little butterflies on our stomach.

Whole life coaching focuses on your entirety as human being. We have physical, emotional, mental and spiritual aspects that make up our whole being. These aspects are interdependent and require harmony. If you are attracted to imbalanced men, then look into the mirror to see that you are holding imbalance within your being. It may be a belief that you are not worthy of love and care, or that your needs do not matter as a priority. We can only experience what we can receive in a relationship.
We accept the love we think we deserve. (The perks of being a wallflower)

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THINGS YOU SHOULD NEVER SAY TO MEN

When guys do changes his expression that goes from happy eyes to glassy eyes then you definitely say something out of the border. Usually, guys are pretty accommodating with anything you say to them. They’re easy going and can put up with a bit of insults and let downs. But every now and then, there are a few things that may slip out of your mouth and hurt him way harder than you think. It is just simply means that men do have an ego and they have this kind of attitude that they made them to act like a man.
(1)  Man up- This is something you really shouldn't tell. You’re not his mother or sister to tell this to your man to grow up and act like a man. He is a man, so if something’s wrong about him, learn to communicate without insulting him.
 (2)  We need to talk- This is absolutely uncomfortable to him. This phrase is the most likely to shift him into defensive mode. Try a more loving approach and you will surely get better results.
(3)  I’m not your mother- Literally correct, but emotionally disturbing for a man. Keep your mom or his mom out of it. It is not really a good phrase for you to say to him.
(4)  Is she prettier than me?/Do I look fat?- Girls. Girls. Girls. Sometimes it is irritating to ask it every time. He’s not a fashion expert or a health instructor. Men don’t like asking questions about that, they find it so ‘girly’ and fancy. If the question you’re asking him has only one acceptable answer – and if a too-long pause in responding will only feed your insecurities – just trust that his answer would have been the right one and don’t bother to ask it.
(5)  Are you really that stupid?- Totally a NO. This is a word that will definitely hurt anybody’s feeling, not only your man. Treat him with respect and don’t act like you’re the main man and he’s the robin in the film. Man does have a pride, so don’t step on it and don’t belittle your guy.
(6)  You’re just like my ex- WORSE. Don’t ever compare him to your past. It is an awkward comparison, besides it’s like stepping again his pride. It’s like telling him that you’re not good for me and I wish my someone come and rescue me from you. It’s a no.
(7)  Never mind- Don’t dismiss the offers he had for you. Men like helping their girls even in the smallest thing on earth. They want to feel that they’re significant for their partner, or they want to be the hero in the scene. It’s their act of language, an act of service, an act of love. Don’t deny the chance for him to serve you.
(8)  Your friend is so charming!- Don’t tell it to him, especially when you haven’t complimented your guy about the same trait.
(9)  I've dated better guys- Just don’t hurt his pride okay? I mean it’s really an ‘ouchy’ phrase for you to tell it.
(10)  You’re insecure- Sometimes they may feel so insecure about things. But don’t say it aloud it makes him feel so weak and helpless.

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