12:40 made up poems

Heartbeats

Please don't walk away
don't fade away
don't rush into hush
Let me reveal, let me show
Then amidst all that,
please love me still.


If you're just a glitch
walk away.
I'm done with all the passer by
Let me have a real one.
The one that will stay
even if my hair turns to gray.


I don't need good mornings or good nights
if I can't lean on you during bad days
I don't need you to say eat on time
if you can't be there on waves
I don't need small talks
I need real ones.


I wish that today would finally be my day
a brand new start
a brand new life
I hope that finally I can call someone mine
a life with you
a moment to last
I pray that your love will never fade
a rain won't catch you cold
a sway won't make you go away.
So stay, please let it be you.

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Where flowers bloom, where love grows. -My thoughts about love are growing.

My thoughts about love are finally growing, it’s finally maturing, and it’s finally taking its own path, making its own backyard.

Love is such a wonderful four letter word. But I have also come to realize that, with that four letter word another four letter words could sprout—Fear, Lust, Risk, Dare, Hurt, Care, Wait, Last, Like, Give, Hope and Many More. It’s like a mother giving birth to its children.

I love the idea of getting the love from watching movies, series or dramas. It feeds my mind to hope for something like that to happen to me. To make me believe that I can have someone like John Cusack in Serendipity, believing in fate, believing in destiny or just like every character of Ryan Gosling in a romantic film making you, making us want to love.

But somehow, I’ve come to realize, that these whole things of loving someone or just the word love itself is a tough one to catch. It’s a closed ring, between you and that ‘love’. You’ll be fighting one on one, blood by blood, and the winner takes it all.

I fell in love and it was a tough one.  I have learned so many things from it and from that kind of love I have experienced; I started to know what I wanted.

I want someone who can admire the less obvious in me, the one who can see deep inside of my smiling face, of my laughing dance or my crying eyes. I wanted a love that can see my reflections, someone that can’t judge me for my mistakes or failures or someone that can’t define me because of my wrong doings.

I want someone who can look me in the eyes so deep that it’ll bother for a moment but I can gaze back through him and everything around us will just be a blur.  I want someone whom I can dance in the kitchen while cooking or baking, someone who can dance with me in the rain or tag along with our favorite indie music.

Someone who can see me not wearing any fancy clothes or make-ups, but still see something in me that’s worth like the Heart of the Ocean. Someone who can be crazy with me at all times, the same wavelength I had. It’s like we are playing mind games but no one will win because both of us will get it.

I pray for someone who can make a song for me, not really making an original song but making a song his own song for me, owning it, that whenever I heard that song playing wherever I am, he’s the only one I can always think about.

Someone who can travel with me and be adventurous. Someone that can dream with me while gazing through the stars. Someone who can sip coffee with me in the morning and someone who can drink wine with me in the evening. Someone who is ready to learn new things with me. I water you, you water me, so we grow together. Someone I can lean on, happy or sad moments. Someone I can trust my life with it. Someone who never let go, someone who never leaves. Someone who will hold you until you fell asleep from crying. Someone who can laugh at your silly jokes. Someone who is honest.

Someone that is really meant for you.

Someone I can be with to pray every time.

Most of all, a person that I can also be that ‘someone’ to him.

Or maybe, just someone who can love me.

There's no harm in praying for someone like that to come into your life anyway. Who doesn't? Love makes you feel like a romantic writer anyway. 

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15 Thoughts about love that I always wanted my heart to remember

1. Find someone who admires you for something less obvious

2. You will never heal by going back to what broke you

3. Give love you never got

4. A person who values you would never put themselves in a position to lose you

5. You must love in such a way that the person you love feels free

6. You will never have to chase what wants to stay with you

7. If you have been brutally broken, but still have the courage to be gentle to others, then you deserve a love deeper than the ocean itself.

8. The person who did this to you is broken, not you

9. It's not love's job to punish you

10. The absence of a lover is not the absence of love, I am my own belly butterflies, my own sunshine, my own warmth

11. Go for someone who is not only proud to have you, but will also take every risk just to be with you

12. Love is not your savior. Love is the luxury after you save yourself

13. When you lose someone, it is never the exactly the same person who comes back

14. If you don't belong, don't be long

15. When someone leaves, it's because someone else is about to arise

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The Perfect "Snogging" Playlist

Imagine this. A not so new but usable car, a group of crazy friends, a perfect night, a road trip, an event of your favorite band, a perfect place, something like a record studio, maybe? and of course your man/lady sitting next beside you, what could possibly go wrong? 

Ah... maybe the perfect song for you guys to start the sparkle? Have it my way. 

1    1.  John Gold-“Vampire’s Kiss”

    “We are love, we are taken for granted
      I'm only here for this moment”

2. The real Tuesday weld-Last words

  “You said you loved me and I kind of believe that

    But these days, who knows what it means”

3. Alabama shakes-Always Alright

    “So you took me to party you got me alone 
     Said you wanna feel good and you feel like you're gonna explode"

4. She & Him-Thieves

    “And I know, and you know too that a love like ours is terrible news

      But that wont stop me crying no, that wont stop me crying over you”

5. Wild nothing-Only heather

          “Dressed in the moonlight and paler than bone she has got something that I've never known

            I couldn't explain it, I won't even try she is so lovely, she makes me feel high.”

      6. The xx-VCR

    “Watch things on vcrs with me and talk about big love I think we're superstars”

7. Jake bugg-Simple as this

    “I've been falling, crashing, breaking all the while you were stood here waiting
      For me girl”

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Fool's gold

You've been always my favorite person, my favorite song, my favorite past. But today, I will start my life without you.

I’ll never forget you. I’ll never forget how we used to be best friends, and then became lovers with a tough love and now, it all comes back again to where we used to be, and we’re good as strangers.

You’re my first love, the first man I always wanted to be with, the one I always wanted to end up with in every step of the way. The reason why I believe that love can be so genuine. The reason why I am happy and for some moment I feel so alive.

But we always go the wrong way.

You’re a time destroyer.

Maybe what we have is different. We love each other, but will never be together, we end up hating and hurting each other … and that’s enough.

I’m not letting you go. I’m letting my feelings go.

I have to accept the fact, that there are people that once were lovers, that once had the most beautiful stories, that once had the most amazing dreams for each other, but will never be together. 

Maybe we always came back for each other, but we always lose the chances that time gave us. It’s such a beautiful grunge love story.  I’ll be keeping these memories, that once I met someone like you. That once, someone made me feel like a flower. But I never wanted to be a flower. 

I want to be happy. I need someone that will never leave me. 

We’ll be alright.

Goodbye to my almost ‘always’. 

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10 things I hate but makes me love you.

10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU

I hate it when I ask you “what are you thinking?” Then you’ll say nothing, even though there is. It makes me wanted to wonder in your world.

I hate it when you lie or whenever I felt that you’re lying. I honestly wanted to know all the details, big or small.

I hate it when you take 5 cigs a day (or more) or get drunk on evenings. I am concern about your health, I wanted to be with you for the longest time, because we have so much things to do.

I hate it when you look at me & I’ll ask you “Why?” then you’ll say nothing. If you wanted to tell me I am beautiful or if you love me, or if there’s a dirt on my face, please tell me. I wanted to hear it from you.

I hate it when you accidentally steps on my foot or trip. I walk fast remember? So why?

I hate it when you fall asleep & forget to text me good night. I know you’re tired, but please before going to sleep, send me a good night message, when the night comes, I wanted my last text message would be coming from you.

I hate it when you sip your drink louder. It’s kinda cute, but others are looking. But it’s you, so it’s okay anyway.

I hate it when we fight, either it’s me who started or you, I just really don’t like the feeling. But whenever it will happen, please let us always try our best to work things out.

I hate it when you’re thinking you’ll disappoint me or you’ll fail. I wanted you to know that I am here in your worst & best moments in your life.

I hate knowing all the girls you like before.

10 THINGS I LOVE ABOUT YOU

I love it when you touch my cheeks, chin, ears & back. It’s like you’re playing with my sensation.

I love it when you hold my hand, while we’re walking in the middle of the night, just the two of us. You make me feel safe.

I love it how you protect me while crossing the streets, you’re so into it. I also do love while you patiently wait for me when I came from work. It touches my heart, knowing that you’ll be waiting for me. I will always appreciate your efforts.

I love it when you say my name or our endearment, it’s like my name has a new meaning.

I love looking at you while you eat, you make me realize that foods shouldn’t come into waste, every bit of it. I love the nights when we decided to drink outside, talk & have a meaningful conversation. You are the best food buddy I ever have.

I love it when you say you’ll support me, I love it, that even though it’s not your thing to photograph foods or places, you still join me in my hobby & make sure will get the right shot.

I love knowing that even though, I am the craziest, moodiest, weirdest person in the world, you always choose to stay & still interested in knowing my thoughts.

I love how you respect me, it really shows , for telling me I am beautiful, that you’re proud of me & that you’re lucky to have me as your partner. It made me feel the best.

I love it when we both plan & think about our future together, to the places we would go, to the times we can spend all the time & be fool & stupid in love.

1   I love it when you tell me you are happy when you’re with me, that even though I have my own flaws, you still love me & you will always choose to love me.  And there’s more to love about you.

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Why we keep on coming back?

Dear _____,

I have a song for you.

“True love they use to say won’t leave you astray, but hey babe we can start all over again, we’re going home”. There may be a hundred reasons why we failed in the first try, a hundred reasons why we broke up, a hundred reasons why we decided and called it quits. But if there’s one reason why we always wanted to come back, maybe that reason is too strong compared to the hundred reasons why we grow apart. That one reason maybe could bring us back together again. To start again, to add it in our memories, that time we might grow together again.

But people don’t always get lucky. Not all of us can get a second, third or fourth chances in lives. So when we have it, when we are able to grab those chances, we should keep it as an air in our lungs. Treasure it and don’t ever waste it.

Given us the familiarity, that certain voice or feelings, we should keep it alive. We should bury it in our hearts; no one can steal it, trust me it’s ours. 

This should be kept a worthwhile memory.

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THE TEN BLUNT PHRASES YOU USE WHEN YOU’RE “IN LOVE”

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Falling In Love. Feels like Forever. Feels like unending, infinite, and it lasts forever. It brings us into many things, it made us feel the different emotions we thought we don't have and in the same way it taught us to survive in the world of fantasy and reality. Falling in Love has so many definitions. It has so many words and languages. It has so many feelings.

But here are some phrases/sentences that lovers usually say when things are still on the mountain top.


-We both felt it, I mean… the “sparks”

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-We have these special connections, you know, that kind of wire that connects us.

 

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-With you, forever won't be too long.

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-She’s/He’s the one for me. I know that

 

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-Life is incomplete without you.

-We have both the same likes, like music, he likes Foo Fighters and so do I.We understand each other, we are meant for each other.

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-Since the day I saw him/her I know she’s/he’s the one I’m gonna marry

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-He's/She's my True love, my happy ending.

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-I'm head over heels for you.

-We are perfect for each other

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Cheesy Gestures (Based on Movies) that’ll make your partner’s heart melts.

11. The Classic Boom box! (From the Movie ‘Say Anything’)

-          What else can you do once a guy outside your window brings some boom box and let the beat goes on? What else? Doesn’t the beat goes the same as your heart beat? Why not? It’s a classic gesture and teenagers mostly find it ‘ewww’ but what else can you missed with this kind of thing for love? It’s simple as sweet and it designates just how much you love your partner. Additional for the perfect music and that’s it. Plus, why not look up for the hottie John Cusack? WE MELT.

12. Singing in the open field (From the Movie ’10 things I hate about you’)

-          “You’re just too good to be true, can’t take my eyes off you, you feel like heaven to touch all I wanna hold you so much”…. Definitely one of the sweetest gestures of all. I mean how can you not say no to a guy who’s going to sing ‘Can’t take my eyes off you’ and sways and moves like a pro with some help from the band? And how can you not pee in your pants? Oh yeah well, it’s because of the late Heath Ledger and his curly long hair. I Missed that though. Well, it’s a great gesture to do and surprise your partner. You’ll find out that you have an inner sway, moves and a hot voice to sing this to him/her.

    

3.       Draw your Partner! (From the Movie ‘Titanic’)

-          Let your artistic side be known and let your fingers do the magic and touch your partner’s heart. It is so simple but once you’ve done it, it becomes extraordinary. Why? It’s because you draw the most beautiful piece you have. It is the eyes that catch your partner’s soul. You captivated their hearts. And once it is already done, you both look at it and there’s nothing sexier than that.

4.       Do the signature move! (From the Movie ‘Dirty Dancing’ and ‘Crazy, Stupid Love’)

-          Just imagine the signature move that Jennifer Grey and Patrick Swayze did along with the song ‘Time of my Life’, there’s nothing to compare on and it has the most magical moment once the lifting portion is shown. You can do it also, just what Ryan Gosling and Emma Stone did, and part of a challenge for them at first, but the move was also a sign of hotness. Both of you can enjoy this and to tell you, it’s the girl that’ll fly and soar high.

5.       A photography studio (From the Movie ‘A crazy thing called love’)

-          Simple as by doing capturing your partner’s lovely face and keeping his/her smiles and memories. It is by letting your partner knows that you adore them and more than anything else it is by saying they captured your heart just before the camera shots.

6.       Giving a CD Tape/Mix Tape (From the Movie ‘Perks of being a wallflower)

-          It’s like, letting her/him enter another part of your world it is because you let him/her know more about you. You taught your partner how to know you well and part of that is by giving him the tape you listen to and mostly the song you dedicate for him/her. There’s nothing sweeter than that, because just imagine you listen both to the kind of song that your hearts will always remember.

7.       Showing him/her the stars (From the Movie ‘A walk to Remember’)

-          Well not literally speaking, but of course you can show the stars for the love of your life, but most importantly it is by showing him/her the sparks and the light that these stars can give. I bet you get it right?

8.       Build your Dream… House? (From the Movie ‘The Notebook’)

-          If you’re man and you want to give the best for your girl, then the dream house is a good catch. But more of that, it is by building the dreams you both have, either abstract or concrete. 

9.       Take a motor ride after prom (From the Movie ‘The Prom’)

-          After the dancing and all in prom, why not bring your girlfriend into a night ride with your best buddy? Your motor of course not the car, because believe me, your motor is way hotter than your car by that night. Do it while having the song of Shout out Loud’s ‘Impossible’ then after that you’ll have the best prom ever.

10.       Sing to her the Bon Jovi Song (From the Movie ‘A lot like Love’)

-          Dude, it’s your best chance, sing ‘I’ll be there for you’ in your sweetest voice and bring your best guitar. Knock and surprise your baby with this kind of hot love song that for sure will melt her heart. Remember that Bon Jovi never gets out of line. He always rock.

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She’s not a girl anymore but a woman (Tips for guys)

There are quite differences when it comes to Girl and Woman same with the Boy and Man. Well, this ideal for people who finds a partner who wants to settle down, who wants to be matured enough in handling a serious relationship and to luckily find your other half.

Men nowadays, thought that Girls are trending and Woman is scarcity. Usually it is about the time that guys find this ‘scarce’ woman in order also for them to have a partner that can understand them and can act independently and controlled themselves even in unusual ways.

Remember it’s not about the age. Sometimes even younger age of gals act like women.

1.       Girls think that Men understand their thoughts. Women speak words. This one is given. Girls actually feel that when they do think of something their man feels the same way as they thought but actually not. Because girls think differently from men. When women wants to voice out they actually do speak words and not hide it which actually a sign of maturity that men will actually understands.

2.       Girls wear fancy, sexy, revealing clothes. Women look sexy even if they only wear T-shirts. Girls wear fancy things, more accessories and revealing clothes it’s because they are more creative and enjoying the fashion trends in different blogs! But that doesn’t mean that women don’t do that kind of trends, they do only they wear it occasionally. Even if they only wear a simple shirt and pants they still look so damn hot and sexy. –that is a woman, no need some headbands and clips.

3.       Girls are still inside the box. Women are more of outside the box. Girls keep what they believe in what they know is right and wrong. When they simply think how the things matter to them that is their idea. But women actually think of a larger horizon, they not keep the ideas in a one box. They have many options and have larger thoughts of deciding and thinking about things.

4.       Girls watch. Women read. Girls mostly are fund of watching junk tv shows and enjoy for a moment. Women did much more of the reading, getting some ideas and learning’s about the novel. They get more perspectives about this.

5.       Girls are dependent. Women are independent. Financially, emotionally. Girls still need some guidance and of course expect someone for them to provide for their needs. While women are independent of this and you don’t need to pay the cab for them.

6.       Girls talk about matters. Women can stimulate conversations. Girls mostly lack the knowing in global affairs and don’t have much hobbies and interests. Women can handle conversations and can talk about it and will fascinate you still.

7.       Girls eat salad. Women eat whatever they want. Women eat healthily because they respect their bodies. Girls eat healthily to let everyone else know that they are eating healthily. A real woman will sit down and have a burger and fries with you, with no fuss. She knows she can and because she wants to, she will.

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THINGS YOU SHOULD NEVER SAY TO MEN

When guys do changes his expression that goes from happy eyes to glassy eyes then you definitely say something out of the border. Usually, guys are pretty accommodating with anything you say to them. They’re easy going and can put up with a bit of insults and let downs. But every now and then, there are a few things that may slip out of your mouth and hurt him way harder than you think. It is just simply means that men do have an ego and they have this kind of attitude that they made them to act like a man.
(1)  Man up- This is something you really shouldn't tell. You’re not his mother or sister to tell this to your man to grow up and act like a man. He is a man, so if something’s wrong about him, learn to communicate without insulting him.
 (2)  We need to talk- This is absolutely uncomfortable to him. This phrase is the most likely to shift him into defensive mode. Try a more loving approach and you will surely get better results.
(3)  I’m not your mother- Literally correct, but emotionally disturbing for a man. Keep your mom or his mom out of it. It is not really a good phrase for you to say to him.
(4)  Is she prettier than me?/Do I look fat?- Girls. Girls. Girls. Sometimes it is irritating to ask it every time. He’s not a fashion expert or a health instructor. Men don’t like asking questions about that, they find it so ‘girly’ and fancy. If the question you’re asking him has only one acceptable answer – and if a too-long pause in responding will only feed your insecurities – just trust that his answer would have been the right one and don’t bother to ask it.
(5)  Are you really that stupid?- Totally a NO. This is a word that will definitely hurt anybody’s feeling, not only your man. Treat him with respect and don’t act like you’re the main man and he’s the robin in the film. Man does have a pride, so don’t step on it and don’t belittle your guy.
(6)  You’re just like my ex- WORSE. Don’t ever compare him to your past. It is an awkward comparison, besides it’s like stepping again his pride. It’s like telling him that you’re not good for me and I wish my someone come and rescue me from you. It’s a no.
(7)  Never mind- Don’t dismiss the offers he had for you. Men like helping their girls even in the smallest thing on earth. They want to feel that they’re significant for their partner, or they want to be the hero in the scene. It’s their act of language, an act of service, an act of love. Don’t deny the chance for him to serve you.
(8)  Your friend is so charming!- Don’t tell it to him, especially when you haven’t complimented your guy about the same trait.
(9)  I've dated better guys- Just don’t hurt his pride okay? I mean it’s really an ‘ouchy’ phrase for you to tell it.
(10)  You’re insecure- Sometimes they may feel so insecure about things. But don’t say it aloud it makes him feel so weak and helpless.

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